A friend of mine told me I should write about what I’m going through and how I have been affected and overcome it all. I told her I couldn’t because I already have a book I’m writing. She asked me how it’s going and I told her it’s been awhile since I worked on it. She asked me why. And I told her I’m not into it right now. And she said that’s why it’s a good time to work on this book. Because one it’s fresh and two because I’m living it right now. It’s a way to heal and release. And she was right. I already wrote out my chapter’s and will be starting my writing on this new book tomorrow. Has anyone else stopped working on one book for another?
I know that everyone deals with things differently. I’m being hard on myself regarding my book. It’s not going to write itself. But right now I just don’t want to work on it. My dream is to become a published author. But right now my mind and heart is not in it. I know it will get completed one day and to not be hard on myself. As long as the passion to write is still there then I know that my book will get completed.
It’s time to reset and refocus my life. I haven’t felt like writing in awhile. With so much going on it’s not the same. Went to the doctor today because my shoulder has been bothering me. Only to find out it’s my rotator cup. I have to do physical therapy and if it doesn’t get better than surgery. So much has been going on with my life that I need a time out button. But it’s time to reset and refocus. I have got to get me back on track.
I have been honored to read other people’s rough drafts and even final drafts of their books. But one thing that I have heard many people say is that people are so critical of their work. One lady’s rough draft that I read was an amazing story and she got discouraged because someone told her that no one would ever read her book. It truly breaks my heart when I see that people have put in the time and effort to create a wonderful story just for people to speak negatively about the book. I encouraged this lady to continue with her book and make the necessary changes and not let anyone stop her from completing her book. I have read many books from rough drafts, final drafts, and best sellers. We all have our opinions but I have read New York best-selling author books that were not that good. I don’t feel like anyone should discourage anyone from writing a book. You don’t know how you can change someone’s life or even go on the become New York’s best seller. I have to listen to my advice that I give others because I do get discouraged about my book. If this is your first book or your 100th book please don’t let anyone tell you not to write your story.
I have been journaling for as long as I can remember. I have so many journals it’s crazy. Writing in my journal has always given me comfort and peace. But more so now with so much going on and me having so many thoughts about things. It’s freeing to be able to express my joy, fears, and pain without any judgment from anyone. Expressing myself through writing has always helped me grow. When I was younger and I felt like I had no one to express my problems with writing helped me. It helped me learn that I did have a voice despite what I may think. It showed me how creative I could become with my thoughts and expression. It helped to write short stories, poems, and even letters. I know that some people feel like writing down your feelings is a waste of time but for me, it’s my kind of therapy. It takes the stress and burden off of me when I can write out my thoughts. It’s the calm and peace that I need in my life.
So last week I hardly read or worked on my book. I have been feeling like I’m in a slump when it comes to my book. I know that I can’t make things happen but sometimes I just don’t feel motivated about writing. I love to read and it seems like I have been in a slump with that as well. I hope that this week I can get out of this slump and get back to what I love to do. If you have ever been in a slump what do you do to get out of it?
I listen to a sermon today it was about being all in. And it made me think about a lot of things. What am I all in and what am I not all in? I’m all in when it comes to my marriage. Just learning and growing with one another has made me appreciate who I have in my life. I’m all in when it comes to being a mother and also when it comes to my friendships. But one thing I don’t seem to be all in about is my writing. I seem to doubt myself and read other people’s work and I just stop writing. But I know what I have to offer when it comes to my writing so why am I not all in? That is a question that I don’t have an answer for. I know that I have a story to tell and I know that the story that I have to tell will help and bless someone. I haven’t written since my friend passed away. I know that this isn’t an excuse, but I have to be all-in when it comes to what I’m passionate about. So what’s your all in?
I wanted to give you an update on my book. So I sent out the first 5 chapters of my rough draft. And so far everyone is loving this book. I got some words of advice on a couple of chapters. They want me to dig deeper and open up more. This book is about my life and some of the chapters are emotional and some of the chapters are about my struggles with things. And you never know how someone will react to what you write. This is my baby and to let others read it had given me some anxiety but the feedback has been amazing. I’m working on some of the feedback as well as continuing to write the remaining chapters of my book. One thing that I’m doing that I noticed that others haven’t is I’m not worried about the word count our if all chapters are the same. Some chapters will be longer and some shorter. I have to go with my heart on this and not follow certain rules for writing. I know that some won’t agree with me and that’s okay. Welp back to writing.
Well, I’m happy to report that I have 6 people who will be reading a part of my rough draft. I will be sending this out this week. I’m excited and nervous to see what they will have to say. But the more I write the more I feel good about it. I feel like this is a huge step for me. I still have more chapters to write but I feel like this is a good step in the right direction.
So I have a question for all my writers and authors out there. So here is the question: When you have a rough draft who do you let read it? Do you find beta readers, friends or do you pay someone to read your rough draft? I’m in the process of wanting to have someone read my rough draft. But I’m at the point that I’m not sure if someone will read it to give me the feedback that I need or if someone is reading it to steal my story. So this is the question that I’m asking.