New Season 1:

I’m entering into a new season of change. See part of my season is leaving old things behind and saying hello to new things in my life. Worry, doubts, fears and things like that are no longer welcome in my life. I have been down long enough to know that I don’t want to be the same person anymore. And what I mean by that is I want to live a life that is rich and full. A life of meaning and joy. I’m tired of fear and doubt ruining my life. I’m doing the things that bring me joy, peace, and laughter. Life is way to short to be stressed out over little things and big things as well. This new season is full of change.

How much longer:

My heart is racing
I can’t slow down
This is worse than a merry-go-round
Dysfunction and chaos is all around
Why can’t you see your life is a mess
Your friends care nothing about you
And right now I’m feeling stressed
Open your eyes and see the life you were given
The choice is your’s are you done living
I can’t watch your destructive path
How much longer will this last
Are you going to live or just play this game
You only have one life, surrender or you’re gone
How much longer will this last
I say a prayer for you, but you only laugh
Destruction is where you are headed if you don’t change your ways
How much longer will this last
My prayer I hope it saves

It hurts:

It hurts to see what you have become
A silly little child a restless bum
I watched you grow from a baby to a man
And what I really don’t understand
Is where I went wrong
It troubles me so
You were on the right path
But now I don’t know
I don’t understand why you don’t care so much
Your life is so precious, but you don’t give a fuck
As a mother, it hurts me to see
What your life could have been
But now I watch what your life is to be

My Journey in marriage:

I see so many people laughing and smiling there way through life. And I wonder if the laugh and smile are genuine or are they making everything look good for the world? Well, when I look in the mirror I have to ask myself the same thing. This week was a tough week for me emotionally. My husband and I weren’t talking because we got into an argument last Saturday. So we didn’t talk and it hurt me because I didn’t know how to say what I was feeling. Honestly, I didn’t know how I was feeling. But it hurt because we weren’t communicating. Marriage isn’t easy and I see that a lot of people make it look easy. I’m learning not to say things when I’m emotional. I want to make sure that my words are full of love and respect. We are talking now and have made up. But what I’m trying to say is that my words use to be out of anger and payback. I’m learning to choose my words carefully because words have power. I never want to destroy anyone with my words. So I’m learning to let my words be better. I want to speak life over people. I want my marriage to grow and if you want to grow anything then you must water it and speak life in the situation. You won’t see results right away, but I’m positive that you will see results within a week.

Summer days:

Some days I remember just like it was June
The sky was bright and so was the moon
My days as a kid was so carefree
I felt I could fly and just be me
But as the summer ended
And a season appeared
I could always count on
The bright sky and the stars being so clear