This weekend has been rough. I felt like I was drowning. I felt so alone and yet I had so many questions. I had to get away to take some time for myself and make some decisions that I felt were best for me. When you give your all to people and you feel like you are getting nothing back it’s hurtful. When you are there for everyone but no one is there for you. When all you need is a minute to grieve and you can’t get it. All you need is someone to ask how you are doing but it never comes. Hey, are you hungry? I know that I don’t always communicate the best but at some point, you have to ask yourself why am I here? Why do I do what I do for people? Is it possible that people are that shallow? When do you become a priority? I did a lot of soul searching and a lot of thinking. I have to do what is best for me because no one has you as you do. It’s sad to be in this place but trust me I will come out strong. I’m not taking me for granted anymore.
I hope everyone’s weekend was amazing. Mines was truly amazing. Watching movies and hanging out with the hubby is always nice. And it got me to thinking about life and marriage. We get married because we want to spend forever with someone. And we also see this person as our best friend. But yet I notice couples who don’t like spending time with each other. I’m talking about before COVID started. I have always enjoyed spending time with my husband. I don’t always enjoy his driving but that’s another blog post. Why do we say that this is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with but you don’t like to do things with? I must say that a couple that I know they only go to church together and family functions. Other than that they do things separately. I asked her why is this, and she told me she doesn’t like his interest. I don’t like all my husband’s interests but I do like spending time with him. I’ve learned to appreciate the things that he likes. I can go to the book store and I know my husband would rather be somewhere else but he doesn’t nag me about going. He knows that this is one of my happy places and he likes seeing me happy. I told her here is a thought how about you just go and see why he enjoys these activities. And she did and now she enjoys some of the things that he likes. You never know what you like and don’t like it if you never try. You can discover so much from each other. I’ve learned that just because I don’t necessarily like some of the things that my husband does doesn’t mean that I can’t hang with him. I can bring a book or journal while he is taking pictures or whatever. I now have a deeper connection with my husband because we both like to hang with each other, even if we don’t enjoy the other’s activities.
Happy Friday. So what are you doing this weekend? I’m going to be relaxing and just enjoying my family. I love weekends were you have nothing planned to do and you can just wing it. I love just staying in bed and snuggling with my hubby. So what are your plans for this weekend?
So how was your weekend? Mines was great. When I say that I enjoyed my weekend I really did. This was the first time I really smiled. I haven’t really smiled in a long time. My husband had me laughing and enjoying my weekend. We didn’t do anything special but when I tell you whole foods was a fun outing. So how was your weekend?
So how was your weekend? Mines was good. I went and got a new plant. I know have two plants in total. I’m not good at taking care of plants so we will see. My first plant I’ve had for a year and it’s still living so I’m hopeful that I can do the same with this one. And then the hubby and I cooked together and played Madden this weekend. It was a very relaxing and lazy weekend. If you know anything about me I’m a huge football fan so Madden was fun. Any football fans out there?
Hey everyone have you stopped to smell the roses today? With all that is going on are you taking care of you? If not please take the time this weekend to just do nothing, or watch that movie you’ve been wanting to watch. Dance like no one is watching. Just enjoy yourself this weekend. Life is stressful enough. This weekend just enjoy it and not think about all that is happening in the world. Have a great weekend everyone.
I must say that this time during lockdown has been truly good. The reason why I say this is because I feel like spending time, communication and love that has been shown. Yesterday was a rainy day so my husband and I decided to make our daughter a senior breakfast since she won’t be able to have one. She was so shocked and surprised. It made it so worth it. I’m realizing that we are appreciating one another and the things that we do for each other. I got to talk to my sons and I learned that one of my son’s has a surprise on the way for me ( and no it’s not a kid). I love surprises even though I don’t get them often. I just reflected on the time that we were so busy doing this and doing that, that we just didn’t realize how busy we were. I mean yes we made time to do things but everyone has there own lives and things that they want to do more that it’s hard to spend time together. I’m blessed to be able to laugh, spend time and just listen to how everyone is feeling at this time. I feel like God is wanting us to appreciate those around us, to understand that life isn’t always about busyness and just to get us to rest. I know that this virus is very serious but have you ever stopped to think that what you have been praying for he is giving you? You want more time with family and now you have it. You hated your job and now you don’t have one, but you are realizing a new dream and passion. You wanted to work on your marriage more now you have time. We can be quick to point out the negative in this time, but lets stop to point out the positive as well. This is my daughter senior year. She had so much going on that we were going to be busy all the month of May. I’m honored to have this time to work on relationships, to go deeper with people, to be able to spend more time with my family and also to work on myself. I hope you all are seeing the positive in this time.