Have you checked on you lately? When was the last time you checked on yourself? If not it’s time to. We check and take care of other’s. Now it’s time to do the same for ourselves. Make sure you are good. Have a great day.
This year has been hard for me. I felt like I was doing everything right the best that I could. But it doesn’t seem like it now. I have been without a job since September of last year. That was a hard time for me. I felt worthless and like I didn’t have meaning. But I know now that a job doesn’t bring meaning to your life. But I thought that it did. I thought that I was a nobody because I didn’t have one. It was something hard for me to process. People have a way of making you feel like shit because of the things that you don’t have. But now that I have a job does that make me feel more worthy? Does it make me feel better about myself? I notice that at times I try to make myself feel better for others but not for myself. Not anymore because all the pain that I felt not having something is over. The fear of not living for someone else is over. I’m worthy and a job doesn’t define me.
Some habits are hard to break and some habits need to be broken. Yesterday was hard for me. I was very disappointed in myself. I’m trying to have more positive self-talk when it comes to myself. And yesterday I was down and my self-talk to myself was anything but positive. The words that I said to myself would not have been something that I would have said to anyone. Why do I allow myself to talk to myself in any type of way? I wasn’t okay with it and just because I was having a bad day yesterday isn’t an excuse to be mean and belittle myself. Making sure that I speak to myself in a positive light is something that I have been working really hard to get better at. I don’t know why I allow myself to get this way sometimes. I’m not perfect but I’m trying to do better in creating more healthy habits when it comes to myself. It takes 21 days to create a habit. I hope to break this habit in 21 days.