We all make our own choices in life. Some of the choices that we make are either good or bad. But life is full of choices and decisions that have to be made. I have made more decisions in my life that were based on other people than on myself. And I had to look myself in the eye and say is this how you want to continue your life? You want to make decisions that will make everyone else happy or you happy? I had to have a tough conversation with myself this year. And let me tell you it wasn’t pretty but I was honest with myself about what I wanted and what I wasn’t about to tolerate in my life anymore. I have always based my life around other people and their happiness and comfort level. Well, let me tell you I’m done with that. I’m in my 40’s and your comfort level doesn’t have anything to do with mines. I’m done entertaining negativity because it’s draining and I don’t have time for that in my life. I want to live a content life. I don’t have everything that I want in my life but I want to be content with whatever season that I’m going through. I have had enough of making sure everyone else was good before I made sure I was good. 2020 was a shitty year and I’m not about to have 2021 be the same. I can’t control the pandemic and I can’t control other people but I can control myself. I have had some ups and downs this year that has caused me to step back and review some things in my life. And as I was reviewing I seen some things that needed to change. Nothing wrong with change but make sure you are doing it for the right reasons and it’s going to benefit you. Life is a journey and you just have to be ready for the adventure.
Spring forward. Well, I’m glad to have more sunlight in the evenings now. The time change has got me thinking, when do things change in our lives? I know that I have made some changes that I feel have benefited me, but why does it take so long to make the necessary changes? Season’s change and time change but do we change? Change is hard to come by. But I noticed that the more that I change the better my life gets. But why does it take so long? I’m stubborn and I don’t want to change all the time. Sometimes I feel like I don’t need to change and other people should. But when I think about it the more I change the more people around me either change or show their true colors. Change is necessary for growth. But just like the seasons and time we need to change as well.
They say that marriage comes in stages. The first stage is the honeymoon. This stage I’m not familiar with. All my friends stated that this stage lasts for 3 years. They state that you’re happy all the time, everything is wonderful and perfect all the time. During the first 3 years of my marriage, we moved from Virginia, Georgia and then to Louisiana. I feel like we didn’t have enough time to bond, to just go on vacations and just have peaceful bliss. We struggled for the first 3 years of our marriage. We argued a lot, we didn’t know how to communicate well. We were both trying to get used to living together and trying to get our personalities to match. So for me, the honeymoon phase didn’t exist in my marriage. But through the years I’ve learned what the honeymoon phase is all about. You don’t have to just have the honeymoon phase just at the beginning of the first 3 years of marriage. When my husband and I got into it last week I was hurt. Not talking to someone that you care about is painful. But when we made up, I can honestly say that I’m experiencing the honeymoon phase. We have talked, laughed and just been carefree since then. I’m learning to live in the moment with my marriage. It took a very low point in my marriage to understand what I’m missing. To some fixing, an issue in your marriage is out of the question. They would rather divorce or separate. But for me, I want to fight till I can’t fight anymore for my marriage. So if you’re like me and have never experienced the honeymoon phase don’t give up it will happen. And anyone thinking about giving up on their marriage, fight for it till you can’t fight for your marriage anymore. Anything worth having takes work. So work on it, I know that I am.