There has been so much going on since the last time that I had blogged. My life has had some ups and downs. But in the end, I’m still staying strong. Death has come upon my life, people leaving my life, and more than that me doubting myself through this whole transition. Life can be a lot at times and I have always been that person to be strong for everyone. Encourage everyone and make sure that everyone is doing great. But yet I have neglected to make sure that I’m doing okay. I haven’t checked in with me to see how I can help myself. I worry about others too often and I seem to lack checking in on myself. This is so important I can’t stress it enough. Please check in on yourself and make sure that you’re okay. It’s good to make sure that others are good but you need to take care of yourself also. I’m trying to understand certain events in my life and how to change or make them better. I’m trying to be more positive when it comes to my self-talk. It’s not always easy and now with so much going on it’s even harder. Life seems to throw a lot at you at once to where it can knock you down. I refuse to be knocked down. So I want to know how are you doing today?
We all want that perfect love story. A happy ever after. But what if you’re love story looks like stress and mess? What if you’re spouse works every last nerve you have? Is there a perfect love story? What if you grew up in a home where there was divorce. And you never witness there love story? What if you try to model from your friends there love story? Would that work? Probably not because you’re not them. I have often wonder what a perfect love story would look like for me. But the more I dream it the less I can see it. Im a flawed women married to a flawed man. Lord knows there are things that I wish I could change about him. And I’m quite sure there are things he wished he could change about me. I have heard people say is a love story really worth it? I would like to say it is. But who am I? I haven’t even written my love story. Maybe they don’t exist but one could hope. Maybe some stories are not worth writing. Maybe some stories not worth telling. Maybe love is just meant to be kept inside. I don’t know. Maybe one day I will have a love story to tell.
Have you heard the saying it’s better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all. I wonder if that’s true.
So I have a question for you. Do you believe that when you are in a relationship with someone that one person loves or does more than the other person? I would say that’s true. I have been that person past and present and I wonder why. I don’t know if it’s what I have seen growing up or just in me period. I’ve always been a giver and I always want to make sure that people know that I care. Maybe in some ways, that’s a good thing, but I have seen it where people do take advantage of you because you are nice and kind. But does it matter who much or how little you do for someone?
Who are the people in your neighborhood? I remember growing up and I knew everyone on the block. But now I can’t say that I know any of my neighbors. I speak to a few of them and the others I don’t. Why not well if I speak to you and you don’t speak back well I get it. But you remember when the whole neighborhood looked out for you? When you got in trouble with one neighbor and then got told on and got in trouble with your mom. Does that even happen anymore? What happened to the village? I see kids now just running around with no parental supervision and so disrespectful. So what happened to the village? Why don’t we know the people in our neighborhood anymore? Do we not care about getting to know people anymore? Just pondering so many thoughts.
So I have a question. For those who have taken the COVID vaccine did you have any reactions? I’m wanting to get the vaccine but I’m scared, to be honest. I have some health issues and I have talked to my doctors about it and they say that the benefits outweigh the risk. But I have been noticing that the news isn’t telling the whole story regarding the vaccine also. I know some people who have taken it and different things have to happen to them. It’s rare the doctors said but still, I feel like people should know all the facts.
How was your weekend? Mines was great. I bought some things for my mom for Mothers day. Yes I’m early I know. I watched Mortal Kombat with my family. The movie was so good. So I have a question for everyone. What would you like to work on this week? Whether personal or professional? Well for me it would be my attitude. I really need to get it together.
What does it mean to love someone unconditionally? Is it even possible?
Two more months and 2021 will be here. Dealing with 2020 had my emotions and anxiety on high. Now COVID is up in Texas and they are still opening things up. It’s hard for me to wrap my mind around this. So now people who are on unemployment have to look for work again. Did I remind you that COVID is rising rapidly in my state and city? But what I don’t understand is why are we still putting people at risk? Why are we okay with the rising numbers and nothing is being done about it? I’m not going to lie this has me on edge. But I’m not the politicians. I hope they know what they are doing. People still go into stores without a mask. People still act like this virus is no big deal. To many people who don’t care about other people’s lives. It’s sad to me. People please be safe and think of others and not just yourself.
So I have a question for all my writers and authors out there. So here is the question: When you have a rough draft who do you let read it? Do you find beta readers, friends or do you pay someone to read your rough draft? I’m in the process of wanting to have someone read my rough draft. But I’m at the point that I’m not sure if someone will read it to give me the feedback that I need or if someone is reading it to steal my story. So this is the question that I’m asking.