I hope everyone is doing well today. I just want to give you an update on my book. I’m learning that there are going to be so many rewrites as a writer and I’m okay with that. I have started to change some things about the book that I’m working on. I had to stop writing for a while because I just got discouraged with my book and not knowing what direction I should go in. But I’m out of that funk now and working on this book. So how are you doing today? Have anything good going on right now?
I’m looking for new book recommendations. Are you currently read any good books? What old books did you enjoy?
Everyone I know how exhausted you maybe. But take the time today to relax and show others love. Regardless of what is going on just know that you will make it through. Read a book, listen to music or just have a relaxing bath. No matter what happens just know that Im sending you love today.
I hope everyone is having a great day today. Well, tomorrow is election day and if you didn’t early vote I hope you plan on voting tomorrow. It doesn’t matter who you vote for please go out and vote. I know that some people may say yes it does matter who you vote for. But let’s be honest we are always going to disagree on any topic. No one running is perfect let’s just get that out of the way. But at the end who do you feel like will make a difference? Who do you feel like will bring about change? There have been so many debates and quite honestly I can’t wait for tomorrow to come so it will all be over with. It’s too much hating and too many lies being told. I wonder have we ever had someone who was running that was truthful and wanted the best for everyone? Has there ever been an ad out there that hasn’t bashed the other person? Are we okay with how candidates talk and treat each other? They should act like adults, not two-year-olds. These are just my feelings. Maybe the change will come when enough people are truly tired of feeling like nothing has changed. Maybe the next generation will be the change that we need. How can you tell your kids to respect other people when you see on the debates and ads that the adults don’t even respect one another. This is more than a black and white issue. This is more than a rich and poor issue. Will we ever look back and say why is the world this way? I’m saying that now. Where did it all go wrong? I’m quite sure there are plenty of examples of this. But what are we going to do to make things better for the future coming up? I just hope you go out and vote tomorrow. I hope that nobody makes you feel any type of way because of who you voted for. But I hope that you look within yourself and say where can I help be the change.
This book is powerful. I have felt like my life was a bunch of detours. But uncertain to why this is. Reading this book has transformed my life. I see things differently and now I know why I had to go through what I went through. Detours can be hard but they are a learning lesson. I love how he uses Joseph story to really get you to understand detours and why things happen the way that they did. This is a great book.
How are you? With everything going on in the world how are you doing? I know for me I’m tired of it all. I will be glad when the elections are over with. I could go on about that but I won’t. COVID is rising and people are still not taking it seriously. And the weather is truly getting strange. As much as I would like everything to go back to normal I honestly don’t remember what normal is like? So many people are dying because of other careless people. So many are dying because of the color of their skin. Jobs are closing because of COVID. People are feeling helpless and hopeless. Marriages are ending because people realize that they can’t spend the rest of their lives with this one person that they now have to spend so much time with. This year has been draining, to say the least. I have moments of motivation when it comes to my book and moments when I just don’t want to write at all. I honestly don’t believe whoever we elect as president that things are going to change. How in four years can a president make all the wrongs right? I have tried to limit how much news I watch but sometimes that’s impossible. But how are you doing? What helps you get through the days?
I’ve been taking care of myself and I have been learning me more and more. I have learned what I want and what I don’t want. I have been loving me more and more. But one thing that has truly made my heart swell is the fact that my husband has been so supportive and loving to me. My husband and I have been in a really good place. I haven’t been going out of my way and doing stuff for everyone. And it’s nice to see that my words are important and to be taken seriously. It hurts that I had to go off to get results. It hurts that people don’t seem to care as much as you do. But I learned that my level of caring isn’t always other people’s level of care. They care they just show it in different ways. I’m learning to be patient and understanding when it comes to those things. My chest pain has gone away. I know that it was most definitely stress. I’m learning and growing. But one thing is truly important for me and that’s taking some me time. I’m not going to neglect myself or always be available like I use to be.
I’m learning more than ever that I need to protect my peace. I have let people get to me to a point where my peace isn’t protected. As I look back on last week it has been one of the most stressful weeks in a long time. I have been unappreciated, overlooked, and taken for granted. All while I’m doing the things that I need to do for others. I had to truly ask myself is this stress and anger worth all this? And the answer was no. I honestly never thought my daughter and I would butt heads so much. I’m a very easy-going parent and I feel like maybe that can be the issue. In life, we all have to make decisions that are best for us. And I decide to protect my peace at all costs. We have found ways to compromise but in the end, it’s time for me to be selfish. I’m taking back my peace.
It’s crazy to expect people to be who you think that they should be. This week was a great learning lesson for me. Tuesday I started having these weird chest pains while cooking. The pains didn’t go away so I called my cardiologist and I was scheduled for an EKG the next day. But during that night I didn’t feel myself and instead of getting some type of empathy for my husband. It’s like he wanted to pick an argument and I wasn’t happy about that at all. Then on Wednesday, I had my EKG done, and when it was done I let my kids know that I had to get an EKG done. And the next day not one of my kids called or even asked about how I was feeling. My daughter who lives at home with me didn’t even ask. She was just worried about what she wanted to do but not me. When I tell you how much that hurt me. I felt like okay I’m not understanding this at all. I got so many what I felt like were excuses from my kids and then on top of that, I told my husband what I felt like was lacking in our marriage. And it felt like he couldn’t understand where I was coming from. When you having a conversation with someone it’s rude to constantly be on your phone. It’s like when we do stuff he’s always on his phone. How hard is it to put your phone down and pay some attention to your wife? I’m not really in a good space right now. It just feels like a lack of respect and concern for me when it comes to my husband and kids. My EKG came back normal but my doctor is still concerned. Thank you for letting me vent.
As you know I’m an empty nester. Well not really because my daughter still lives at home while going to college online. I’m glad that her college is doing an online course only. But right now I feel confused about where our relationship is going right now. My daughter is a young adult and she has a lot of freedom. But right now I feel like her freedom is going to the extreme. On Sunday I was so mad at her because my husband and I offered to help her out with her parking but she said she had homework due. But yet she went out with her friends. I don’t mind her hanging out with her friends. Okay yes, I do with Covid going on. But I never had an issue with her going places and doing things. But here is my issue with her newfound freedom. I don’t want her grades to slip and I don’t want her to lose focus on her goals. On her off days from work, she hangs out with her friends. My daughter wants to be a doctor and she will be in school for a while. I’m just concerned that by always hanging out she will lose focus. Maybe I’m having a hard time with my baby being a young adult. I’m not sure where this balance is going to come from. At her age, I already had a kid and I wasn’t able to go to college. I’m trying to protect her but I know that I have to let her go and grow up on her own. This is where I’m struggling right now. Any advice for me?