I’m taking a break from social media to be able to focus on God and areas where I need to grow. Social media was stressing me out. So much is going on, too many people are dying and so much negative and hate. I felt myself stressing out because of the words that people were using against one another. I had to redirect my focus and what I want for myself. Sometimes you need to step away from things for you to get yourself right. I was too caught up in social media. But now that I have been off of it I don’t have any desire to get on it. I’m doing a 21 day fast and since I have been fasting I feel so much better about myself and how I see things. I feel like we can get too influenced by other people and their thoughts on social media.
So the first step to loving myself is taking the time to see what I need. What can I do to be the best me possible? I have to understand that I’m not going to be perfect. I have to cut myself some slack. But right now I have to understand that the key to loving me is remembering with God say’s about me. To understand that I have to take this one step at a time. Loving me is spending time with God and taking time to work on all the negative that I have said about myself and others. Trust me this is a process worth taking and working on. I know that my love for me will bloom.
It’s very interesting to me to see so many people wanting to find love this year. But I rarely hear anyone talk about loving yourself. That’s where I’m at right now in my life. How do I love myself? Where do I even begin? Loving others is so easy but to love yourself how do you even begin? I’m taking baby steps to work on myself and the changes that I want to see in myself. But where do I start with the love of me? This is a question that I must give some serious thought to. Any suggestions about how I even begin this task?
2020 wasn’t the best year for me. It started with me having some health issues. Then in the middle of the year my daughter and I not seeing eye to eye. Then my marriage being I don’t know up and down. Through all of that, I still kept making an effort and helping anyone who needed my help. But I always seem to do it for others and not myself. I feel like I had lost myself and my voice last year. It felt like everything around me is crumbling. But I hadn’t lost my voice at all. I love to blog and write. So between journaling and blogging, I was finding my voice in those lonely hours. When everything around me was crashing down I still had my voice. Things are a lot better with my husband and daughter, but one thing I need not ever forget is that I have a voice and to use it. Trust me losing yourself in others and never saying how you feel is not okay. I will be using my voice this year and not shying away from how I feel.
So here is my second book box subscription. This one blew my mind and all the goodies that it had inside. So this box subscription is called introverts retreat. And I must say I was very pleased my this box. In the box were a bookmark, book, candle and bath salts. Let me tell you this candle smells so amazing and I used some of the bath salts last night. This book box subscription I think I will keep for a while. I love all the things that I got from this book box. Have you tried a book box before?
Okay, so if you know my blog then you know that I keep it real on here. So you may wonder why my word this year is myself. Well have you ever been there for others and honestly lost yourself in taking care of others than you have yourself. I don’t have anything left to give people. I’m completely drained. I need to find my joy, love, and light again. I feel like a mirror broken into a million pieces that I need to put back together again. And to be honest I don’t have a clue where to start. Okay let me take that back I have prayed about it and that is a start. So where do I go from there? I’m not sure. I have so much work to do on myself because I’m starting from the beginning again. I have pain that I need to deal with. I love to love me again. I have to understand that I can’t be everything to everyone. I’m going to grow and glow this year. Well, maybe this is supposed to be my next move. I good at holding things in so maybe blogging about it will help me.
I have so many goals this year but what’s more important is that I try to accomplish these goals. I know that I tend to fall off of my goals to help others. But this year it’s going to be different. My focus is on me and being a better person. Have you ever got so wrapped up in other’s plans and dreams that you forgot about yourself? Yeah, that’s me to the fullest. For as long as I can remember I have always been about helping others succeed just for them to leave me in the end. Broken promises once they got what they wanted. But no more. No matter how small or big my goals are I want to complete at least 80% of them this year. Even though this year has just now started I’m more determined than ever to take me back. So here’s to me taking me back.
I have noticed that many people have a word for 2021 and I had to think about my word long and hard. And it finally came to me, my word is myself. I’m going to be kinder to myself. I’m going to love me, support me, and encourage me. I have always gone hard for everyone else but myself. I have done so much for others and never for myself. Why have I neglected myself for others? Why have I done so much for others who have done less for me. This year of 2021 I’m going to make a better me. So my word for 2021 again is myself.
I hope everyone has a Happy New Year. I pray that this year will be better in so many ways.
As the year is coming to an end I would love to thank everyone who takes time out of their busy day to read my blog. It means the world to me. You all are the real MVP’s. I don’t know what you are going through and I don’t know how your feeling. But know this, I care about you all and I pray that next year all your dreams, passions, and anything else you may have been praying for getting answered. I pray that 2021 brings more love, success, and able to get out and see the ones you love. I know that this year has been a true struggle for us all. But just know your blogs and comments have meant the world to me. Never give up on your dreams, if you want to go back to school do it. If you want to get out of debt do it. Whatever you want to do, do it. Never stop dreaming. Never stop loving.