Happy August. It’s a new month and this is going to be a new me. Last month was pretty rocky and it shatter me in so many ways. But I can’t let my attitude about what happened to control the joy that I have. I know that there will be seasons in my life where I’m up and seasons where I’m down. But the most important lesson should be that I find joy in whatever season that I’m in. Trouble doesn’t last always. It had been a while since I had journaled and yesterday I took the time to write down my thoughts and feelings. And I was amazed at how much I miss journaling. I’m going to get back to the things that made me happy and brought me joy. I have one area in my life that I can’t seem to get together but I shouldn’t let that area bring me down. Happy August everyone.
I’m learning that everything that glitters is NOT gold. I felt like some things in my life were solid. The foundation had been set and it was all good. But this year has taught me that even though there is a foundation, maybe it’s time to move. I’m moving from anything and everything that doesn’t bring me peace. If you can’t have a real conversation with me then we can’t be friends. If you think I’m not important to you, then I guess Im not. Some things use to break me and get me down about relationships. But one thing I have learned is we make time for who and what we want to make time for. It’s all apart of my growth for this year. Im learning some things that I need to grow and let go of.
This year I’m shedding dead weight. I’m leaving behind the things that don’t bring me joy. I’m leaving behind friends who I thought were friends. I’m leaving behind the shame and disappointment that I have placed on myself. I’m leaving behind trying to do it all on my own. I’m leaving behind disappointment and hurt. One thing about me is that I will carry someone else’s burden around me all the time. It’s not my burden so why am I caring about it? Because I care about the people who are in my inner circle. But one thing that I noticed is that there are some people who won’t carry around your burden. They barely call or text you, but when they are going through something you are the first one they call. Hello, 2022 Colleen is putting herself in a position to win and heal. No more will I be more to people than they are to me. No more will I go out of my way for some. I’m leaving the dead weight that has held me down for years in the past. My focus is firmly on me. I haven’t put myself first ever. There is a first time for everything. 2022 is a year of letting go and becoming better than before.