Mom: Part 2

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When I got to my second child I was pretty much comfortable. But when I got to the second child I was calmer and I used to take care of one child. But when it came to two it wasn’t that hard. My second child was calmer and didn’t require as much attention as the first child. My second son made it so easy to parent. He showed me that being a parent was special and something that I was good at. We were in sync because he always knew when I was sad or having a bad day. As a mom, it showed me how different your children can be from one another. My first son was so full of energy and my second son was so calm. It was like night and day. But I have learned that what works for one doesn’t work for the other. My son is now a young adult and to see how he is navigating life gives me joy. He is a great cook and loves to throw down in the kitchen. I’m so very proud of him and all that he has accomplished.

Mom: Part 1

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I have seen that people are saying that May is mother’s month. Not quite sure what that is supposed to mean, because every day is mother’s day to me. As I was reflecting on Mother’s Day coming up a question came to my mind. How do you think you have done so far as a mother? Whoa, this is a very loaded question. So I will break it down into pieces for you. Let’s start when I first realized I was pregnant. I was a junior in high school when I first became pregnant. I was full of emotions and wondered how I would be able to take care of a child and continue my education. I was very fortunate to be surrounded by people who were going through the same thing as me during the same time. We would talk about how we were feeling because it was really hard to talk to my mom about how I was feeling. She was very upset with me about being pregnant rightfully so but this was new and I needed help to navigate this journey I was about to be on. One thing that I was determined to do was graduate high school which I did without missing a beat. But one thing that I knew is that I would support and love my son unconditionally. I wanted my son to know that no matter what I was going to be there. When you go through storms I have seen parents turn their backs on their kids. I promised never to do that. Also, I wanted to show my son, unconditional love. Something that I felt was lacking in my life. As my son is now a young man I have seen the challenges in his life and he has overcome so many challenging obstacles. But no matter what I was there to give him advice, love, and support. I’m proud of the young man that my son has turned into. He has taught me a lot about myself and that I am strong. The first child is always hard because you don’t know what you’re doing and you only want the best for your child. I can tell you that he showed me how to love and just be myself. Mom is the best name that I can be called.

Being a mom:

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Being a mother has always been special to me. I knew that when I became a mother that I wanted to do things differently. I want to say I love you to my kids, I’m proud of you and things like this. The word I love you was rarely used for me growing up with my mom and dad. My granny told me a lot but not my mom and dad. I rarely heard them say that they were proud of me also. But now that I’m grown I hear it more. I wish they would have affirmed me when I was younger it would have helped me a lot. I wanted my kids to have what I wanted so bad growing up. I want them to know and feel love. I want them to know and understand how proud of them I am. I want to have fun with them and let them know that I’m here. To me being a mother is a hard job but so rewarding also. I have seen my kids become some amazing adults. I love to spend time with them and hear them laugh. I love it when they tell me that I did a good job with them. I just didn’t want to give my kids things growing up, I also wanted to give my kids lessons that they would need in life. I want them to love themselves and understand that people won’t always love you back in return. As I watch my children grow I see that they are taking the lessons that I taught them in there relationships and friendships. There is no greater job than being a mom. For me, I love the phone calls, text messages, and time spent with my kids. It’s always the little things that mean the most to me. I wish that my parents would have shown me love and made me feel like I was special. But it’s okay because I’m making sure that my kids feel this way.

Amazing:

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This weekend has been nothing but amazing. I got a surprised by my baby boy this weekend. I love when my boys come see me. I haven’t seen my son since last year and it was so good seeing him this Mother’s Day weekend. Plus my daughter got the leadership award from her school today. I’m a very happy mom. Motherhood hasn’t always been easy. I was a mom at the age of 17. And all three of my children are amazing. They are all thriving and making me proud. I was afraid that at times I wasn’t doing enough or was maybe doing too much. But I have learned that all that I had I gave to them. I put the best of me and sometimes the worse of me in them. This year has been very emotional because my daughter is a senior and will be off to college soon. Seeing my kids grow and live life to the fullest has made me a very happy mom. I’m so proud of all my kids. They truly made this Mother’s Day weekend so special.

Worried:

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As a mother, I only want the best for my children, but sometimes there are things out of my control. Since last year my daughter has been having really bad headaches. They thought it was her optic nerves in her eye. But it’s not. So today we are going to get a CT scan of her brain. For a mom, this is very scary not knowing what’s causing my daughter headaches. I don’t like to see my daughter down and not knowing how to help just makes me feel bad. I know that God is in control and that we will find out what’s going on. But I’m still worried.