Last week my husband was on vacation. Which was a great thing because he never takes a whole week off. It gave us time to just hang out and enjoy one another. The last time my husband took time off work was in September for our anniversary. It was nice to be able to relax and just hang out with one another. We were able to talk, catch up on movies, and even just hang out. Even though we have the weekend it’s not enough time to be able to do what we need to do. I hardly rest I’m always going and going. But it was nice to be able to actually relax and just hang out with the hubby. But it gives me a deeper appreciation for all that he does for his family and how much spending time with me gives him peace. This year has been crazy but we have gotten closer this year. I know that no matter he will always be by my side.
I’m not even gonna lie Covid has made things hard for me. I haven’t seen my sons and mom since May. I miss them like crazy. But I have grown to appreciate the time that we did spend together. I definitely didn’t take that for granted. And now I understand what my Granny used to always say. Make sure you make your time with people count because you never know when it will be your last time seeing them. Oh, how right she was. I don’t know what 2021 may bring, but I do know that from now on I will be more intentional when I spend time with people. I miss hanging out with my friends and giving them hugs. Time is so precious that we often take it for granted. 2021 I plan on doing things differently because I know that I have not used my time here on earth wisely. The next time I see family and friends I’m going to hug them longer and enjoy them more than I used to.
I want to continue with my grateful message. If any of you are married or have been married. Then you know how hard it can be. My first five years of marriage was a true struggle for me. We had times where we just couldn’t get it right no matter how hard we tried. But we didn’t give up on each other. We got to a place where we both communicated so differently. Once we got into a marriage group and then started doing the hard work on one another we got better. No, we are not perfect but our marriage is better than ever. I’m grateful for my husband never giving up on me and this marriage. I’m grateful for him being the provider while I got laid off work. I’m grateful during this season of 2020 we are still in love and enjoy spending time with one another. There are so many people I know who are currently going through a divorce. It’s sad because you don’t know what people are going through in their marriage no matter how well you know them. Even if your marriage isn’t going as well as you would like if you and your spouse are still trying to make it work then that’s a reason to be grateful. I count my blessings daily when it comes to my husband. I’m grateful for him and his friendship.
What does it mean to love someone unconditionally? Is it even possible?
I want to thank everyone who takes the time to read my blogs. Thank you for your comments and encouragement. I love the fact that I have such a great community of bloggers. Sometimes when I’m having a hard day my face lights up when I see your comments or even your post. Thank you for making my day a little bit brighter. I hope I make your day better as well. Thank you again for letting me write my truth and thoughts. Thank you all for being awesome.
I hope everyone’s weekend was amazing. Mines was truly amazing. Watching movies and hanging out with the hubby is always nice. And it got me to thinking about life and marriage. We get married because we want to spend forever with someone. And we also see this person as our best friend. But yet I notice couples who don’t like spending time with each other. I’m talking about before COVID started. I have always enjoyed spending time with my husband. I don’t always enjoy his driving but that’s another blog post. Why do we say that this is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with but you don’t like to do things with? I must say that a couple that I know they only go to church together and family functions. Other than that they do things separately. I asked her why is this, and she told me she doesn’t like his interest. I don’t like all my husband’s interests but I do like spending time with him. I’ve learned to appreciate the things that he likes. I can go to the book store and I know my husband would rather be somewhere else but he doesn’t nag me about going. He knows that this is one of my happy places and he likes seeing me happy. I told her here is a thought how about you just go and see why he enjoys these activities. And she did and now she enjoys some of the things that he likes. You never know what you like and don’t like it if you never try. You can discover so much from each other. I’ve learned that just because I don’t necessarily like some of the things that my husband does doesn’t mean that I can’t hang with him. I can bring a book or journal while he is taking pictures or whatever. I now have a deeper connection with my husband because we both like to hang with each other, even if we don’t enjoy the other’s activities.
2020 has been one heck of a year. But it also has been a year where people’s true colors have come out. I have never known such hatred and negativity. I have never known so many people stand up and say that they don’t like this group of people. I have never known people to do things to intimated you, just because they can. What is happening to this world? I feel like things are falling apart, to be honest. Where did all this hate come from? Where did all this injustice come from? It hurts to know that we are all in this together but we are so divided. Hate is a powerful thing but so is love. We have got to do so much better. We can’t have white against black. Police against black. We need to come together and do better. I remember this song that we use to sing at church ” This world is not my home, I’m just a passing through. I wish we could get rid of the hate. Just my thoughts.
My question is how do you rebuild trust once it’s been broken many times?
You have my heart so treat it right
You only get it for one night
They say love is patient love is kind
You need to take care of this heart of mine
What more do I have to do
To get you to love me too
What do they have that I lack
Is it beauty is it lust
I gave you my heart, but we lack trust
What more can I do
I told you how much I love you
I show you on a daily, but maybe
You need more than I can give
You have my heart but now you give
My reason to just wonder what I have been missing
All I want is true love, that’s all I seek
Another broken heart, how long will it heal
Just another women wanting something real
I almost forgot what it was like to let myself go and let someone love me. I don’t like getting to close to people in fear of getting hurt. But when someone hurts me I start to close up. But I had to remember we all need grace when things happen. Just because someone hurt me doesn’t mean that it was intentional. I have learned to release the hurt that others have put on me and enjoy life. I was pushing so many people away because of what others had done. But I have stopped and let love come my way. I’m tired of being held back by past hurts. I’m letting love guide me for now on. I’m letting others show me, love, in ways I never knew that I needed. I have been feeling so much love lately that I’m running over. I love this feeling. And yes I know that love is a feeling but this feeling I don’t want to ever go away. I feel like my life is on the right path.