I’m the type of person who can make friends easily. But have you ever no matter how many friends you have felt lonely? Have you felt like no matter how much interaction you have with people you still feel alone?
Alone time from your spouse is so necessary because you can start taking them for granted. I’m learning to appreciate my husband more. Life is too short and we need to give people their flowers while they are still alive. Alone time for me gave me time to relax and focus on myself and doing the things that I enjoy. But I must say you can get lonely with having alone time if you’re not used to it. I had good intentions of writing and reading all day, but that didn’t happen. My thoughts got away from me as I was writing and I started to get lonely. I’m so used to hanging out with my husband that now he’s not here I really don’t know what to do with myself. I’m still reading and writing, but what I had planned in my head isn’t happening. This is something new for me and while I enjoy time alone I’m rethinking this alone time.
After a while of years of dealing with social anxiety and depression comes in. You may get uplifted at home, but what happens when you leave home? Are people that disinterested in you if your not like them? Everyone struggles with something but people who struggle with being social are looked at differently. They are looked at as weird, crazy and murders. But they are not. Yes, some people who are loners have done things like this, but for the most part, many of them live in the silence of there struggles. How are they to coop with this? They are not anti-social they just struggle with being social and how to fit in. Why do we just overlook them or ignore them?
I want to tell you a story about a friend of mine. He’s pretty cool, laid back and a bit of a loner. See the story goes that he has trouble keeping friends. It’s not that he’s unfriendly, it’s just that he’s not very social. People talk about him because he doesn’t take the time to say good morning to them our goodbye when he leaves. But he’s friendly, he will talk to you. Crowds of 3 or more people make him uncomfortable. He likes one on one conversations. But people think he’s weird because he’s not outgoing like everyone else. But why does that make him weird? Maybe if you got to know him and understand him you will know that he has a social anxiety disorder.
Here I am on this lonely road, I’m wandering around with nowhere to go. I’m seeking for something I may not know. What is my mission, which way should I go? Here I am wandering around this place, I find my joy in a lonely place. Here I am, here I am. Why can’t I seek what I want? Why look and still not find. Why am I wandering around when here is where I seek? Am I that confused or maybe out of reach. Here I am, here I am no longer alone, but I’m still wandering around on this lonely road.