Have you ever read something that was dealing with a situation you are currently dealing with? Man let me tell you I was reading my daily devotionals and it was talking about our words. Are the words that you use kind, compassionate? When someone makes you mad or says something that you don’t like is your words mean and unloving? I’ve noticed that every time my husband say’s something to me that I don’t like I get upset. Sometimes the things that he says are for my benefit but I don’t feel like it’s out of love. And other times I feel like he is just picking on me. But what if someone says the same thing that he did, well I don’t get as upset. But what I told him is that some people use compassion and grace where I feel like he is being harsh. I need to understand that I’m putting my feelings into what he is saying because I feel like he should say it in a better way. Just because it’s not how I like doesn’t mean that I have to be harsh in return. You should always treat others how you want and like to be treated. I don’t always do this with those who are closest to me. I really should because if I don’t want my feelings hurt then I shouldn’t hurt someone else’s feelings as well. Life is all about lessons and I’m trying to learn to do better.
During this coronavirus, I have had time to think about things and life. I see what’s important to me and what’s not. What I can let go of and what I want to keep. No matter what you do you will have to let things go in your life. You have to clean out your heart, closet, kitchen, etc and let some things go. It’s important for growth and learning. Just because you keep things don’t make them valuable or of much use. It’s time to get rid of stuff and let things go.
I’m currently reading a book by Sheila Walsh titled it’s okay not to be okay. I needed to take some time out to get me together. I haven’t quite got me to were I want to be but I’m getting better. It helps to have people around you that care. Tomorrow is my stress test and sonogram and I’m nervous but I know that I will be okay. I know that I don’t have to fake when I’m not okay and that it’s alright not to have all the answers at once. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed and just need time to yourself. I want to comfort and be there for people when in reality I need to comfort and be there for myself sometimes. There is nothing wrong with putting yourself in a time out and figuring out your situation. There is nothing wrong with needing time alone to get you together. Love on yourself and spend time with yourself, you’re worth it. And I’m taking my own advice.