Time to clean up this heart of mines. It’s time to release something that I have been holding on to. It’s time to let go of old baggage and get me right again. I’ve noticed that I haven’t been vulnerable to the people closet to me. I’ve been holding on to a lot of baggage that has weighed me down. I haven’t been talking about the things that I’ve been dealing with because I don’t want to burden people and because I thought that I was strong enough to handle things. But it’s time to cleanse this heart and soul. It’s time to get my heart back right. I’m about to make some serious changes in my life and how I let others treat me. I’m about to get serious about releasing stress, self-care and truly loving me. I’m about to let it all go away. When your tired of all the weight that has been on your heart it’s time to release it. I’m ready for a better me and life. It’s time to take my heart back.
I got a call from my cardiologist nurse letting me know the results of my heart monitor. And she said that I have Arrhythmia with is also called irregular heartbeat. My heart monitor showed that my heartbeat was off. I asked her is that why I feel my heart fluttering all the time? And she said yes. I have an appointment this month to see my cardiologist and discuss with her the next steps. But it got me to thinking about my heart. Not only do I have this issue but I have a deeper issue. We can bury things in our lives that hurt us and not deal with them. Which is my case? I’m not really trying to bury it but more like dealing with it and it’s hard because when you have dealt with pain it just seems normal. But we all have heart issues, sometimes we deal with the issues and sometimes we don’t. I need not only to take care of my heart physically but I need to deal with the things that are bothering me. Do you have a heart issue?
I talked a little bit about my heart issue, and there are many other heart issues that I have. But one of the many heart issues that I have is forgiveness. There have been so many people who have done me wrong and I have just taken it. The hurt and pain that I have experienced at times have been too much. But yet I haven’t forgiven myself for the many situations that I have been in. I often forgive others but hardly do I forgive myself. Looking back I needed forgiveness just as much as they did. As I take time to work on myself I’m slowly forgiving myself for things that others have done to me. It’s bringing up painful situations, but that’s okay because I’m here to heal. I’m learning to let go of all the things that have hurt me and forgiveness is my first step. Have you forgiven yourself? I’m working on it. I’m a work in progress.