Today’s a little tough for me because even though we are going through this coronavirus life is still happening. My daughter has to turn in all her stuff at school and pick up her cap and gown today. I’m an emotional wreck, to say the least. Next Saturday she get’s to walk for her graduation and then just like that I’m an empty nester. Where has the time gone? I’m overwhelmed with joy and sadness. I’m so proud of her so far she has gotten two scholarships and she’s getting two cords for graduation. I feel like I’m dizzy with happiness. And then it’s on to college or more like online college for the time being. But I’m so proud of her. She is in a new season of life and so am I. I have all types of emotions going through me but I know that she will do fine in the world and me well I have to find what I want in this second season of life. Anyone an empty nester? Any advice for me?
I’m looking back at 2019 knowing that in 2020 I’m going to do things so much differently. 2019 brought a lot of unnecessary pain and sadness. 2019 I should have left some things and people behind. But I didn’t because I was afraid. But I’m learning to protect myself and my peace so much. But in 2019 I wasn’t so sure about myself and how I was going to make it, but one thing that I forgot is that God will always be here for me. 2019 I had to release some pain and try to learn how to manage that pain. My outlook on life is so different now. 2019 isn’t over yet but me not being happy and enjoying the people that I’m with is. Life is way to short to tolerate people who don’t want to change.
Today is an emotional and happy day. Today my baby girl turns 18. She is no longer a baby but she is still my baby. She is the last one. All my kids are grown now. She has brought me so much joy, love, and laughter. I never knew that having a daughter you would have someone who gets what you go through and loves you unconditionally. She is my cheerleader, my heartbeat and my heart. Happy birthday baby girl. You will forever be my baby.
I’m learning to create my happiness. And today has been an amazing day so far. I’m learning that not everything needs to be done right away and not everything has to be a rush. Just laying in bed and enjoying the extra time doing nothing. Laying next to my husband and enjoying our pillow talk. Not caring about time and just enjoying my time with the people around me. That’s what my day is all about today just enjoying my time and creating my happiness. I’m loving the idea of just seeing how not being on a schedule or meeting the demands of others will help me slow down and enjoy this life more. How do you create your happiness?