I’ve had disappointments in my life. More than I can count actually. The disappointment for me is when your dad doesn’t show up for you. My dad has caused me more disappointment than I can count. Even as a child he made promises and would say things and never does what he says. You would think that as an adult I’m over that and know better. But when you want and crave a better relationship with your dad and he just doesn’t want that, that hurts. My dad was supposed to be here this weekend and backed out, but my heart was crushed. But one thing I do know, I’m not putting myself through this again I can’t. I have to have a conversation with him and be done. If you don’t feel like I’m important enough then I shouldn’t have you in my life. I’m tired of being disappointed by him all the time.
I know that I shouldn’t let anyone disappoint me, but I can’t help it. I always let a certain person get my hopes up just to let me down. As I’m working on me I need to work and understand that I can’t allow anyone to steal my joy. But once again I’m disappointed in myself for once again allowing someone to disappoint me. I have to understand that some people just don’t care about you as much as you think that they do. If someone wants to make time for you then they will. I’m not going to let anyone disappoint me anymore.