It has to stop:

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I’m sitting here today thinking about my life. My relationships have gotten so much better. Except for one. I haven’t talked to my dad since March and to be honest, I don’t feel bad about it. I stopped talking to my dad because I was tired of him lying to me. All my life that is all my dad did to me was lie. And I had, had enough. At some point, this has got to stop. You can’t continue to lie to me and let me down all the time.
But it bothers me that he doesn’t get it. It’s just another day to him. He doesn’t understand why I’m upset. It doesn’t matter how many times I have told him this already. He just seems to be clueless. I’m the only child that he makes promises to and doesn’t come through on. So I’m tired and done. When I feel like talking to him then I will but right now I need time to heal. Your parents are supposed to set an example for you. Not lie to you and think that it’s okay. My dad has never been there for me in any way in my life. Just trying to figure out what I did so bad to be treated like this.

Disappointment:

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I’ve had disappointments in my life. More than I can count actually. The disappointment for me is when your dad doesn’t show up for you. My dad has caused me more disappointment than I can count. Even as a child he made promises and would say things and never does what he says. You would think that as an adult I’m over that and know better. But when you want and crave a better relationship with your dad and he just doesn’t want that, that hurts. My dad was supposed to be here this weekend and backed out, but my heart was crushed. But one thing I do know, I’m not putting myself through this again I can’t. I have to have a conversation with him and be done. If you don’t feel like I’m important enough then I shouldn’t have you in my life. I’m tired of being disappointed by him all the time.