Happy Anniversary:

Can you believe it. Yesterday was my 4 year blog anniversary. I can’t believe I have been blogging this long. Thank you to everyone who has followed me from day one to now.

Tough conversation:

I want to have a tough conversation if you will. Why is there still racism? I truly don’t understand why there is so much hate for someone’s skin color. If you paint, draw, or design you just color right? So do you dislike a crayon color? How can you dislike the color of someone’s skin? I’m not my skin color. I’m so much deeper than you can possibly imagine right now. When do we begin to love and stop hating a color? You can dislike an individual be we are not all the same but let we are labeled all the same. Can we have this conversation?

Open doors, closed doors:

Sometimes you think you have found the one. Whether it be a job, relationship, house, or whatever. And then something happens that the door closes to that opportunity. Well, that is what happened to me with the job that I had. I now know that even though you think something is right for you it may not be. Always go with your gut instinct because it may be right. I’m happy for closed doors but happier for open doors. I have interviews this week and I know that I will get the right job for me. I feel like so many people are hiring and they are not ready for the new people who come in which is okay. But if the higher-ups have an attitude with you about it well that’s not your fault. Things should be handled and taken care of before the new people get there. Just because it seems like a good fit doesn’t mean it always is. There is something out there for everyone. Whatever you’re looking for whether it’s a job, house, relationship, or whether I hope the right door opens up for you this week. And everything that you are not meant to have because it’s not good for you closes as well.

Happy Friday:

Happy Friday everyone. I hope you have a great weekend. I hope you get the yes you need today. Whether it’s a yes to a job, yes to a health report and a yes to an answered prayer. I hope you get your yes and so much more.

Kind:

Please be kind to yourself today. The mistakes you made are in the past. You will make more mistakes. But please be kind to yourself.

Question:

So I have a question for you. Do you believe that when you are in a relationship with someone that one person loves or does more than the other person? I would say that’s true. I have been that person past and present and I wonder why. I don’t know if it’s what I have seen growing up or just in me period. I’ve always been a giver and I always want to make sure that people know that I care. Maybe in some ways, that’s a good thing, but I have seen it where people do take advantage of you because you are nice and kind. But does it matter who much or how little you do for someone?

Oh happy day:

This year has had its fair share of ups and downs. But this month things are certainly looking up. I have been out of work for a year and 3 months. I would apply for jobs just for them to tell me I’m overqualified or they were not hiring at the time. It got very discouraging and I would often hear people stating that people on unemployment are lazy and not looking for work. Well, I will say this, I was not one of them. I don’t like sitting at home with anything to do. I have goals and things that I want to do and that takes money. I’m happy to say that I got a job this week and I start on Monday. I had to learn in this time that I asked God to give me a job that I can grow at. A job that cares about its employees and something close to home. God gave me that and more. I just had to be patient when all the doors around me were closing. Not every door is meant to go through and I was blessed that God never let us go without. If you know anything about living off of one income it can be tough. I’m truly grateful for my husband and him being the main provider during this time. I haven’t been on unemployment in like 15 years and I was only on it for a month. It can be a lot and people don’t understand that because they are not on the other side of the situation. All I have to say is that I’m glad that God answered my prayers. We have never been in a pandemic like this before and before people start judging one another please take a walk in someone else’s shoes.

Don’t stop dreaming:

It’s been a while since I allowed myself to just dream. I have dreams but I have placed them on hold. I use to daydream all the time and I guess I have let myself stop dreaming. I’m not sure why I have allowed myself to do that. But it’s okay to dream again. It’s okay to want to do things that may seem impossible. We all have dreams but it is up to us whether or not they come true. Your dream may be small or big, but the point is to never stop dreaming. I know since this pandemic there have been people who had dreams and made them come true. I on the other hand had put my dream to the side for a while. No matter where you are in life right now, never let your dream die. Dream again because you never know where that dream will take you.

Changing seasons:

We all make our own choices in life. Some of the choices that we make are either good or bad. But life is full of choices and decisions that have to be made. I have made more decisions in my life that were based on other people than on myself. And I had to look myself in the eye and say is this how you want to continue your life? You want to make decisions that will make everyone else happy or you happy? I had to have a tough conversation with myself this year. And let me tell you it wasn’t pretty but I was honest with myself about what I wanted and what I wasn’t about to tolerate in my life anymore. I have always based my life around other people and their happiness and comfort level. Well, let me tell you I’m done with that. I’m in my 40’s and your comfort level doesn’t have anything to do with mines. I’m done entertaining negativity because it’s draining and I don’t have time for that in my life. I want to live a content life. I don’t have everything that I want in my life but I want to be content with whatever season that I’m going through. I have had enough of making sure everyone else was good before I made sure I was good. 2020 was a shitty year and I’m not about to have 2021 be the same. I can’t control the pandemic and I can’t control other people but I can control myself. I have had some ups and downs this year that has caused me to step back and review some things in my life. And as I was reviewing I seen some things that needed to change. Nothing wrong with change but make sure you are doing it for the right reasons and it’s going to benefit you. Life is a journey and you just have to be ready for the adventure.

A seat at the table:

Have you ever taken the time to think about life? I mean think about life? My husband and I just finished watching The Tulsa Massacre. I don’t understand why some things in history are hidden. Who does this help? Yes, black history is painful but to hide it doesn’t make sense. Will we ever get to a point where everyone will be treated equally? There has never been another black wall street. I support all businesses but I try to support the black business more. When will all the killings stop. I don’t have all the answers but I do hope that we can all have a conversation that will help everyone. Black people don’t get the recognition that we deserve. Can we all just say that the world would be a better place if we were treated equally? Let us all have a seat at the table and have an honest conversation.