Growth:

This is a new season and I feel myself changing. Besides my allergies acting up I have seen some growth in me. And others have mentioned how much I have changed (in a good way). And to be honest I didn’t know what they were talking about until a conversation popped up and my husband mentioned to me that I don’t become angry when talking about his parents anymore. If you don’t know the story well let’s just say his parents and I don’t get along. Well, it’s mostly his mom that I don’t get along with. She has done somethings and said somethings to try to ruin my marriage. She has always been a thorn in my side, but I didn’t even realize that when he was mentioning them. It just felt like a normal conversation about other people. I’m so proud of myself because we could never just have a conversation about them without me blowing up. But I’m at peace where we are so this is a huge milestone for me. And also when talking about my kid’s dad I don’t get angry and blow up anymore. I have moved on and I’m truly at peace with where our relationships are ( which means we don’t have one). I felt like I would always have to deal with my anger when it came to these two. But now hearing their names or even talking about them in conversations doesn’t bother me anymore. The growth I have come a long way. I’m proud of myself for maturing into the woman that I want to be. Trust me this process was not easy and it didn’t happen overnight. As I always say life is a journey.

Get some air:

I don’t know about you but the simple things are truly making my weeks and days. Yesterday I needed to run some errands but just getting out in the sunshine helped to lift my spirit. And I was thankful that not a lot of people were in the store when I went. I miss just getting out and about like I used to. Even though it’s cooler today than yesterday I still plan on going outside for a little while. I might take a walk or just stay on the porch. If your feeling down gets some fresh air if you can. Buy a plant or make a recipe you have been wanting to try. Even though this year and probably month is stressful, find different ways to de-stress and enjoy the day. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Love:

What does it mean to love someone unconditionally? Is it even possible?

Let’s be grateful:

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There are so many things to be thankful for this year. But this month maybe we need to count our blessings even more. There has been so much love and hate regarding the next President of the United States. But to be honest we can’t seem to get along with the people we live with, work with, and have as neighbors. We are so worried about someone we probably won’t even meet in real life. We know that people say whatever they want to say to get elected right, so why is this any different. If you survived the last four years you will survive these next four years. But let’s talk about being grateful. I’m very grateful that God woke me up this morning, that we have a roof over our heads, food to eat. Yes, things are not all rainbows and sunshine in my house. But I’m grateful for my husband and kids. Can we give love to others who need it the most? If you haven’t talked to someone that you care about in years then give them a call. If you feel like life isn’t worth living trust me it is worth living. It might be rough right now but it won’t stay that way. Not because of the President but because of God. Trouble don’t last always. We have all had it rough this year, whether you have lost your job like me or your working from home as my husband. It hasn’t been my ideal year but I’m grateful for the growth and to know that I can overcome a lot of things. I have found joy in the small things. I have learned to truly cherish most is my time. My marriage has improved. I know that there are so many things to get down about. What about the joy and gratitude that you have? Let’s focus more on what we can change and do than on what others may or may not be able to do. I hope you have a great day.

How are you doing?:

How are you? With everything going on in the world how are you doing? I know for me I’m tired of it all. I will be glad when the elections are over with. I could go on about that but I won’t. COVID is rising and people are still not taking it seriously. And the weather is truly getting strange. As much as I would like everything to go back to normal I honestly don’t remember what normal is like? So many people are dying because of other careless people. So many are dying because of the color of their skin. Jobs are closing because of COVID. People are feeling helpless and hopeless. Marriages are ending because people realize that they can’t spend the rest of their lives with this one person that they now have to spend so much time with. This year has been draining, to say the least. I have moments of motivation when it comes to my book and moments when I just don’t want to write at all. I honestly don’t believe whoever we elect as president that things are going to change. How in four years can a president make all the wrongs right? I have tried to limit how much news I watch but sometimes that’s impossible. But how are you doing? What helps you get through the days?

Letting love in:

I almost forgot what it was like to let myself go and let someone love me. I don’t like getting to close to people in fear of getting hurt. But when someone hurts me I start to close up. But I had to remember we all need grace when things happen. Just because someone hurt me doesn’t mean that it was intentional. I have learned to release the hurt that others have put on me and enjoy life. I was pushing so many people away because of what others had done. But I have stopped and let love come my way. I’m tired of being held back by past hurts. I’m letting love guide me for now on. I’m letting others show me, love, in ways I never knew that I needed. I have been feeling so much love lately that I’m running over. I love this feeling. And yes I know that love is a feeling but this feeling I don’t want to ever go away. I feel like my life is on the right path.

My book:

I’m learning that writing is a marathon and not a sprint. I love all the feedback that I have gotten from my book so far. One thing that I didn’t realize is that people want more. They can tell where I was holding back and they want me to not hold back in this book. They also want more information about things. I’m happy with all the feedback and I didn’t expect people to want more from this book. I see now that I’m going to have to go deeper and open up more. For anyone who has ever written a book, what I thought was easy is not. For all the authors out there I have nothing but respect for you when it comes to writing. I may not like every book that I read but I know when an author was genuine about there story and when they are not. Like I said I thought that I had a date where I wanted everything completed, but I’m going to go with the flow and not rush. It’s a marathon and not a sprint. It took a friend of mines three years to get her book out. So I’m going to take my time and write this book.

Storm coming:

I’m sitting here waiting for the storms to come today. We are supposed to get some pretty heavy rain and thunderstorms this afternoon. But one thing that popped in my head is we know when the weather is going to be different. We see it on the news, we smell the rain and see the sky changing. But why don’t we see the storms coming in our own lives? What can’t we see that we should be seeing? I can’t go outside and see the sun shining but there is a storm brewing in my own life. I might feel different but not sure of what is about to happen. Why are some things so easy to predict when other things are not so easy? But I had to stop to ask myself is the reason we don’t see the storm coming because we don’t want to or are we in denial? I know when things in my life aren’t right but there are times I honestly don’t see the storm coming. Maybe I don’t want to face anything else at that time or maybe I don’t truly see it. Is it easy for you to spot storms coming in your life?

Planning:

Your kids can teach you so much. As I was talking with my daughter the other day I noticed that her planner was highlighted in different colors. I asked her about it and she told me each class is colored coded in a different color. And that she knows when homework is due when quizzes are supposed to be taken, etc. I’m like interesting, my college daughter has her classes and things that she needs to get done planned out already. I set goals but planning things I just don’t really do. If I want to get something done I usually will that day or the next. But what I have learned is if I don’t plan things out I might not accomplish the important things. With my book I kinda have things planned out but not like I really want to. So I am determined this week to get up to chapter 5 out for people to read and give me feedback. After that, I will make a goal for the next chapters and so forth. It makes it easier to stay on task and to know what you need to accomplish that day. So now I’m planning each week what I would like to accomplish and if it doesn’t get done I won’t beat myself up about it. I will just add it to next week’s list of things to do.

Book review:

I love reading about other people’s journeys to get where they are at. This book took multiple peoples stories and helped us to see that without God the empty spaces will stay empty. It was a reminder to me that God wants a relationship with me. He wants me to always put him first. There is no obstacles I can’t overcome without him. This book is a beautiful collection of stories about how people put God first.