New me:

As my birthday approaches I’m learning healthy ways to deal with anger, disappointments and all life’s issues. I’m seeing the beauty in protecting my peace. I know my worth and I want to smile daily. It’s not going to be an easy journey but I’m committed to being the best me possible.

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Disappointment:

I know that I shouldn’t let anyone disappoint me, but I can’t help it. I always let a certain person get my hopes up just to let me down. As I’m working on me I need to work and understand that I can’t allow anyone to steal my joy. But once again I’m disappointed in myself for once again allowing someone to disappoint me. I have to understand that some people just don’t care about you as much as you think that they do. If someone wants to make time for you then they will. I’m not going to let anyone disappoint me anymore.

Today:

Today I’m going to smile and not be afraid

Today I’m going to laugh and know that God is turning it around

I’m not going to lose my joy today

Enough trials, heartache and pain

Today is the day that I smile again

My smile won’t ever be lost because I’m going to win

No more anxiety, doubt or fear

I’m through with hopeless tears

Today I’m going to smile again

Today my smile will always win

My love:

I can’t believe how this love began

We were just friends and then

Something changed in the way that we felt

Every time I would see you my heart would melt

How can it be that you have changed my heart

So afraid of love from the very start

But you were so gentle and kind

You were patient with my heart

So in time my heart grew for you no longer friends but something true

I’ll never find another like you

My love is yours through and through

Learning lesson:

When I began to look back over my life I have come to realize that I have been accustom to the bad in relationships that I have failed to look at the good. I was comparing and waiting for all types of bad things to happen in my marriage because that is what I’m accustomed to in many of my past relationships. My husband can do a 100 things right, but when he does one thing wrong I throw all the 100 things that he did right out the window. I’m so focused on the wrong that I don’t look at all the good that is being done. I seem to be so caught up in the past that I’m afraid to accept what is right in front of me. I’m on a journey to do better in my life. I don’t want to be blind to my present and future. I have to understand that not everyone is alike. Sometimes it takes a while to get this concept. I’m just glad that my eyes are open to fully see and appreciate what I have.

Love:

I believe in love

I’m not a slave to it

Love is blind I never knew it

My love is a keeper and nothing to hide

My love is solid and I’m along for the ride

Love is hard they say and that maybe true

Love comes in many forms

And I’m glad to know that love is limitless and my love shows

Endless love:

My heart is open

Sometimes it bleeds

Love is endless sometimes in need

Where does love go when you give it away

Will it ever return or does it just stay away

Love is never easy it gets rough sometimes

A love like mines is endless it gets lost in time

Hello fear:

Hello fear it’s time for you to leave

I’m tired of you and you serve no need

You can’t stay any longer because I’m getting stronger

I’m tired of you fear you have no place in my life

It wasn’t fun while it lasted so it’s time to say goodbye

I’m not going to be needing you anymore

I’m ready to face my fears one by one

I’m sorry to say fear I’ve already won