Are you doing what you love with your life? Do you wish that you could be doing something different with your life? Do you have dreams of doing more and being more in life?
That’s where I’m at with my life. I’m just working a job that provides me income. But it’s not a job that I’m passionate about.
I had to ask myself what is myself some questions.
What are some things that I’m passionate about? Here are some of the things that I have come up with:
Learning a new skill/ DIY
But now here is the problem. Now that I know this what is a job or even a side business that I can do? How can I use my skills to do more and be more in my life? So many questions but not enough answers? Are you doing what you love? If not what can you do to change it?
A lot of you have reached out to me regarding my poem drowning. Yes I’m okay. That’s just how I was feeling in the moment. When you have so many people who are needing you when they need you. It’s just a lot. I honestly felt like I was drowning and couldn’t come up for air. Im learning not to let people take from me what I don’t have. I feel like at times people can suck you dry. They will literally take all your energy away. I have to find time to replenish myself before I pour back into someone. So again yes I’m fine. Thanks for all the concerns.
Oh this book, oh this book is everything. You think that you know the story, but you really don’t. This book I could not put down, it was just that good. This book will have you questioning the secrets that people keep. But more than anything this book will have you wondering why you couldn’t figure out the story. Must read.
I’m a huge action speaks louder than words person. But what I haven’t been doing is truly listening to the words. I can see someone’s actions, but I neglect to truly hear them. And now my ears are wide open, but the words that have come out of another person’s mouth don’t match their actions. I had to step back and take a long look at myself and wonder how long have I been missing the signs in other people? I’m more focused on the action but neglected the words. Whoa, I feel like a fool. I use to look at the actions and words but when you trust someone you don’t question that anymore. Or so I thought. But honestly, maybe I should have been questioning everything all the time. I wonder how long I have been naive? I wonder how long it would have taken me to truly understand that maybe you are not who you thought you were to someone! We all grow and learn but sometimes you trust someone so much that these things you just stop questioning. My conclusion to this is that you should never stop questioning things no more how comfortable you get with someone.
It’s the year of taking care of me. My kids are all grown and I have spent years neglecting myself. When the pandemic hit so did my anxiety and other things that I was dealing with. I’m not sure about you but neglecting yourself is not the way to go. My mental health took a toll and I felt like something had to give. So I took inventory of my life and I found the things that I have been neglecting in me. I found things that I needed to work on and I found books that are helping me do things differently. I’m not where I wanna be but I’m way better than before. I have decided that every month I’m going to check in with myself to see how I’m doing. What I can I improve on and what’s not working. This has really helped me to do a reset in my life. Check on yourself often. You’re worth it.
Who in your circle is making you better? That was one of the hardest questions that I had to ask myself. Who was making me better? Who was encouraging me and seeking to help me do better in my life? I had to stop and examine the people that are in my life. I had to make some hard choices to let people that I thought that I needed to go. When you mess up do you have people who call you out or just go along with what you did? When you are at your lowest do you have people who will talk to you and encourage you? Or are they not even around? Who in your circle makes you better? I don’t want people in my life who are just there taking up my time and space. I want people who I can go through all seasons of life with. It’s sad to say that my circle is super small right now, which is fine with me. But now that spring is here I had to do some spring friend cleaning. And right now I’m happy where I stand with friends.
Who am I? I use to be a woman who felt like I was broken. But I’m a woman who discovered some amazing things about herself lately. I can overcome my past because I’m greater than what I used to be. The more that I love myself and work on myself the greater I become as a person. My past mistakes don’t make me a bad person it just made me someone who has more growing to do. I love plants and one thing about a plant is some seeds need to grow in the soil. You must water and take care of that plant for it to grow. You must give it sunlight and love to see it flourish. I’m that plant and I’m growing in ways I didn’t even know that I could grow. Loving the good, bad and ugly has been amazing. I let so much of my past hold me down. I let so much of what others thought of me hold me down. I’m free from the bonds that held me hostage. I love this new woman that I’m becoming. She is so amazing. I’m going to continue to water her and love her like never before. Everything is flourishing around me because I took the time to work on myself. Self-love and self-care are a must in my life. I surround myself with positive loving people. I make sure to never let anyone cross boundaries that I have set to protect me. I’m not done working on myself and I will never be, but at least I can breathe and smile and know that the work I have put in has been so worth it.
Okay this book was crazy but really good. This book kept me on my toes from the moment I started reading it. So it’s about a woman who falls in love with a man. But for some reason the mother keeps involving herself in there lives. The mother makes up a lie to stop the wedding and from there it all just falls apart. What you think you know isn’t so. And when the truth comes out well let’s just say I never seen this coming. This is a twist for sure.
My soul has been set free with this book. So many little girls go through things and never tell. This book made me laugh and cry. This book made me remember Im not a victim but a survivor. A must read book.