Struggling:

Since the pandemic started my communication with people hasn’t been the same. I miss talking to co-workers and going places with my husband. It saddens me that I can’t go to church and just be outside. I’m not depressed I just wish that I had more interaction with people. I wish I could hang out with my friends for happy hour. I don’t call people like I used to. My main form of communication is texting or social media. I feel like I’m in a funk. I don’t want to be around people but I enjoy being alone. Does that make any sense? I’m an extrovert but I feel more like an introvert. I’m content hanging out with the hubby and going the few places that we go. But a part of me still craves communication and hanging out with other people. Now we have a new variant and I wonder will life ever get back to normal again? I don’t know if I will get back to the outgoing person that I was before. It’s a struggle right now but I know that I’m not the only one dealing with this.

Protecting my peace:

I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving. Mines was good. But one thing that had me questioning myself was a comment that was made on thanksgiving. Let’s just say that the person who said it wanted to go somewhere else for Thanksgiving but decided to come to see me. I had a conversation with my husband about what was said the next day. It hurt me because this person is important to me, and I felt like I was important to them. So from that day on, I was like I’m going to protect my peace. I have had enough hurt to last me a lifetime, but that was the straw that broke the camel’s back. To allow people to hurt and say words that are not okay I will not allow that in my life anymore. I have let so many people just say and do what they will, but not anymore. I have been working on myself and going to counseling to help me heal and move on with my life. I won’t ever take the people who show up for me for granted. But in no way will I make an effort to be there for those who don’t feel like I’m important enough.

Book review: Sunset beach

This is my first time reading a book by this author. And I must say that I will be reading more of her books. So let’s dive into this book. It’s about a girl named Drue whose mother passes away and her estranged father show’s up at her mother’s funeral. The worse part of all is she hasn’t seen her dad in a long time. And come to find out her dad is married to her eighth-grade friend.
She finds out that her mom has left her the family cottage and her dad want’s her to work at his law office with him because they are short-staffed. Working for her father is not a good idea, but what other choice does she have right now.
She and her stepmother are not getting along at all at her new job because she is always late. And to make matters worse she doesn’t really enjoy working on the justice hotline. One day she has to work upfront at the receptionist desk and a lady comes in looking for her dad.
She can’t figure out why this lady won’t just make an appointment to see her dad, and why she insists on waiting. To make a long story short her dad worked on this lady case. Her daughter ends up dead at her job and the insurance company gives her mother pennies. To add the grandmother is now taking care of her daughters, daughter. The money is put in a trust and can’t be used. The grandmother feels like Drue’s dad ripped her off and that her daughter’s murder is more than what they are telling her.
Drue decides to investigate this case on her own. Well, let’s just say that all the twists and turns in this story will have you on the edge of your seat. This story is a story inside a story. This book was a true page-turner.

Enjoy your week:

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November is the month that most people give thanks. I hope that you give thanks every day. I know that this is Thanksgiving week and I hope you all can be with your loved ones and friends. I hope that you enjoy yourselves. I’m very thankful for this blogging community. I will not be posting the rest of this week. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Thank you:

I would like to say thank you. Thank you to my readers who have been with me since day one to people who just recently found my blog. I blog how I feel and from the heart. I thank you for taking the time to even read my blog. I hope you find encouragement, joy, and real-life in my writing. My writing is very therapeutic and helps me with my feelings. I just want you all to know that you mean a lot to me. So thank you.

Working on me:

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This weekend was super emotional for me. I’m in therapy and I had a session this weekend that I won’t forget. It’s nice to go back to your past but when things come up that you don’t want to deal with. Well, that’s when the real work starts. I had to dig deep and get real. I understand why I am the way I am. I have to change some habits that I felt were coping measures. But it’s negative energy that does not need to be. I have been working on myself for a while now. But what I love is the work that I have been doing on myself. I may not be where I want to be. But that God I’m not where I use to be. Therapy has shifted me in a way that made me understand myself and how to be better. Therapy taught me that it is okay to think about your past to correct and do things better in the future. I’m working on myself in a way that I have never worked on me before. This is just the beginning and I know that the outcome will be wonderful.

I hope:

I hope everyone had a great weekend. I pray that whatever you have been praying for happens this week. I 🙏 that God opens a door for you. I 🙏 that you have peace this week. I 🙏 that the world isn’t so loud that you don’t hear from God. I 🙏 that a marriage is restored and friendships are mended. I pray you have a great week.

How was your weekend:

So how was your weekend? Mines was great and yes I got some writing done. I was able to reset and relax. I got to catch up on some much-needed talk with the hubby and kids. We all need a reset in our lives. I love the extra sleep. I’m learning to do what I love at the pace that I feel works for me. I’m realizing that life is what you make it and that no matter what you have to do, do what is best for you. This weekend was much needed. I hope that everyone had a great weekend and you have an amazing week.

Happy Friday:

Good morning. I hope everyone is having a good morning so far. So what are your plans for today and this weekend? Well mines is to write. I have been working on a couple of books at once. Which to some may seem strange, but both books are personal. I feel that writing them both at the same time is very healing. I’m getting back to my happy place. Have a great day and weekend everyone.

Self-talk:

Some habits are hard to break and some habits need to be broken. Yesterday was hard for me. I was very disappointed in myself. I’m trying to have more positive self-talk when it comes to myself. And yesterday I was down and my self-talk to myself was anything but positive. The words that I said to myself would not have been something that I would have said to anyone. Why do I allow myself to talk to myself in any type of way? I wasn’t okay with it and just because I was having a bad day yesterday isn’t an excuse to be mean and belittle myself. Making sure that I speak to myself in a positive light is something that I have been working really hard to get better at. I don’t know why I allow myself to get this way sometimes. I’m not perfect but I’m trying to do better in creating more healthy habits when it comes to myself. It takes 21 days to create a habit. I hope to break this habit in 21 days.