Slump:

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So last week I hardly read or worked on my book. I have been feeling like I’m in a slump when it comes to my book. I know that I can’t make things happen but sometimes I just don’t feel motivated about writing. I love to read and it seems like I have been in a slump with that as well. I hope that this week I can get out of this slump and get back to what I love to do. If you have ever been in a slump what do you do to get out of it?

And then this:

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Even though last week was relaxing it was stressful as well. Navigating my daughter is not as easy as I thought it would be. Since graduation, it feels like she has been just going in a direction that I don’t know how to bring back. She has friends that I don’t necessarily like. And I always share my feelings with her about these friends. On her off days, she is always gone hanging out with her friends. I’m the type of mother who tells it like it is. And one thing that I have to come to terms with is that sometimes you have to let people learn the hard way. One of the friends that she was always hanging with they are no longer friends. I’m more concerned with her grades in college and applying for scholarships. She’s more concerned about hanging out and having fun. I know that I can’t make someone do something but all I want is the best for my daughter. All I can do is pray about it and hope that change will come.

Last week:

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Last week my husband was on vacation. Which was a great thing because he never takes a whole week off. It gave us time to just hang out and enjoy one another. The last time my husband took time off work was in September for our anniversary. It was nice to be able to relax and just hang out with one another. We were able to talk, catch up on movies, and even just hang out. Even though we have the weekend it’s not enough time to be able to do what we need to do. I hardly rest I’m always going and going. But it was nice to be able to actually relax and just hang out with the hubby. But it gives me a deeper appreciation for all that he does for his family and how much spending time with me gives him peace. This year has been crazy but we have gotten closer this year. I know that no matter he will always be by my side.

Break time:

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Hello everyone. I hope that you had a great weekend. I hope you all have a great week. I’m taking a break from blogging this week to spend time with my family. I hope you all enjoy and take the time to love those in your household this week.

This is hard:

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I’m naturally a feeling person. And when I feel a certain way it’s hard for me to not feel that way anymore. As a parent, I want nothing but the best for my children. I don’t tell my kids how to live their lives but I do try to direct and guide them when it’s asked. For some reason no matter how I try to guide my daughter it always seems to be the opposite with her. She wasn’t feeling good yesterday and I as mom was helping her, but then her friend calls and takes her for ice cream. Talk about a slap in the face. I have had it with her. I feel like no matter what I do or say she will do what she wants anyway. And I want to help her, but honestly, I feel like she needs to bump her head and learn the hard way in life. No matter what I say it’s her friends always. Well, we are going to see how many of your friends will care if you caught COVID our not get a scholarship for next semester. How many of your friends are going, to be honest about you doing what you need to do for things to be better for you in the future? It’s frustrating because she is such a bright girl but just so naive when it comes to who has your back. I think it’s time for me to let go and let God. I have prayed about it and have spoken to her about it but only God can move her heart. We’ll keep me in your thoughts and prayers. This is hard for me right now.

Love them more:

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I’m not even gonna lie Covid has made things hard for me. I haven’t seen my sons and mom since May. I miss them like crazy. But I have grown to appreciate the time that we did spend together. I definitely didn’t take that for granted. And now I understand what my Granny used to always say. Make sure you make your time with people count because you never know when it will be your last time seeing them. Oh, how right she was. I don’t know what 2021 may bring, but I do know that from now on I will be more intentional when I spend time with people. I miss hanging out with my friends and giving them hugs. Time is so precious that we often take it for granted. 2021 I plan on doing things differently because I know that I have not used my time here on earth wisely. The next time I see family and friends I’m going to hug them longer and enjoy them more than I used to.

Heavy thoughts:

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I thought that I had my fear under control until recently. And this fear for some may seem crazy or even unnecessary but it’s real. Since George Floyd died my fear of my husband driving somewhere by himself has crippled me. But now when I go somewhere by myself I often wonder will I be okay. Not just driving but going into stores. Yes, I’m well aware of black people being followed in certain stores. But now it seems like people are just being rude and calling the police on innocent people because they feel like they don’t belong there. It amazes me how people can tell other people where they belong and where they don’t. I often find myself wondering if this is the land of the free why it doesn’t feel that way. Like I said for some you will understand what I’m saying. I remember a couple of weeks ago I went to the store and this guy had on a make America great again hat and a trump mask. I didn’t care because those things don’t bother me. It’s called freedom of speech and expression but what bothered me was how he looked at me. And then he had the nerve to say I bet you hate what I have on. And I was like no I don’t, but I bet you hate that I’m not bothered by it. You should have seen the look on his face, even though he had on a mask you could tell that he was surprised by my reaction. I played it cool because I honestly didn’t know where the conversation was gonna go, but he looked at me and said yes I am surprised, and then told me to have a nice day. You should never fear any man, but it hurts when you don’t have the power to defend yourself if need be because you could die. I wish this world was a more equal place to live but it’s not. I don’t care what people wear or what they say, just as long as your not in my face. It’s all about respect for me. But if I was to get pulled over our if I was to defend myself would others see it the same way?

Grateful:

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I want to continue with my grateful message. If any of you are married or have been married. Then you know how hard it can be. My first five years of marriage was a true struggle for me. We had times where we just couldn’t get it right no matter how hard we tried. But we didn’t give up on each other. We got to a place where we both communicated so differently. Once we got into a marriage group and then started doing the hard work on one another we got better. No, we are not perfect but our marriage is better than ever. I’m grateful for my husband never giving up on me and this marriage. I’m grateful for him being the provider while I got laid off work. I’m grateful during this season of 2020 we are still in love and enjoy spending time with one another. There are so many people I know who are currently going through a divorce. It’s sad because you don’t know what people are going through in their marriage no matter how well you know them. Even if your marriage isn’t going as well as you would like if you and your spouse are still trying to make it work then that’s a reason to be grateful. I count my blessings daily when it comes to my husband. I’m grateful for him and his friendship.

Book review:

I was so excited to get this book. I’ve always been curious about the mothers of three great men. But where do you start? How do you find the information that you need? I was so eager to dive into this book and I must admit I feel like these three mothers. This book is full of love and compassion for their sons. How they were raised and taught shows the type of love that they received. This book also helps me to understand that no matter what as a mother when are always teaching our children and trying to have their lives better than ours. We lose sleep and suffer because of the love that we have for them. This book shows me that not only were these three mothers exceptional mothers but they didn’t get the credit that they deserved. We have to prepare our children for the world. And unfortunately, they had to live to see their son’s death. This book is beyond amazing and so needed at a time where mothers are hardly given the credit for raising such incredible men. Thank you book browse for giving me the opportunity for this advanced reading book.