Goodbye past:

My problem has always been that I’m trying to not redo my past. But that’s not the real problem. The real problem is I keep looking back to my past. The past is the past for a reason. Why do I keep looking back to it? It is because of the people in my past? Is it because I’m not over my past? I believe it’s a combination of both. I can’t fully see my future if I’m always looking back. I can’t truly let go of things if I’m looking in the rearview mirror. So much of me has been consumed by my past and the things that I need to let go of. How can I truly heal and lead a life that I want if I’m consistently looking back? I have great memories from my past but I also have great hurts. And instead of focusing on the great memories, I linger on the hurt. The hurt does nothing to project me forward in my future. I should have been so much further ahead by now. But I’m not because I can’t look at two places at once. Either I’m going to concentrate on my future or I’m going to dwell on my past. It seems like an easy choice but so many times we make the wrong decision. But I’m not going down that path anymore. I have given too much time and energy to my past. So goodbye past it’s not me it’s you. Hello, future I’m so sorry I didn’t concentrate on you sooner. I promise to give you my undivided attention from now on. Future I’m ready to keep an open heart and mind about you. Let’s begin this journey.