New in 2022:

Before the pandemic started I felt so confident and outgoing. I felt like the world was turning in the right direction for me. But when the pandemic hit my reality was hit as well. I’m the type of person who will check on someone and help anyone. I’m going to show up for things big and small. But one thing that I noticed is I was doing all the work. Most of the relationship’s that I had with people I was doing all the heavy lifting and they were reaping all the benefits. Why did it take a pandemic for me to truly see this? Also, something that I realized is that I was a person who was a free spirit and now I feel like my spirit is broken.
I’m having to rebuild myself in this uncertain world. I’m having to figure out what I do want and don’t want in my life. I’m having to figure out if some friendships are really worth it. I’m having to figure out a whole new me. I feel like life before the pandemic was all about others. Now, this life has to be about me and what I want. No more back down when it comes to thoughts and opinions. No more giving away more of myself to people who are not doing the same in return. What do I want the new Colleen 2022 to look like? Well, I’m working myself and that is the question that I always have in the back of my mind. Working on myself has been one of the hardest things for me to do. But it’s going to be so worth it in the end.