In my feelings:

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I have wasted a lot of time this year. This year just like last year has had me down. So much uncertainty and not knowing what was happening. But more than that I have wasted a lot of time doing nothing. I could have had my book written by now and done some other things. But I have put a lot of that on the back burner. Yes, I still write for my book now and then. But I’m not consistent with it. I had this drive and passion to write, I still do at times. But I’m not gonna lie I have no motivation. There are other things that I feel like I should be concentrating on right now. But that doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t get my butt in gear and do the things that I’m passionate about right? There are times that I feel defeated. The job search is stressing me out, not feeling like I’m doing enough to bring in income is stressing me out. Having just said they need help only to tell you that you’re overqualified for the job. Having others succeed and want you to celebrate with them, but not feeling like it. No this isn’t a pity party post just expressing how I’m feeling right now. I have so much to be grateful for right now that I do understand. And I know that things will work themselves out. But how to get over this funk is what is breaking me right now.

12 thoughts on “In my feelings:

  1. No problem. Girlfriend, everything in your post is where I was. It had me in such a twisted funk until I was one hot mess and got on my own doggone nerves. I went through the job thing and still do. I have an MBA and that seems to mean nothing when I am interviewing. I’m still dealing with every “ism” there is, including ageism, regardless of my decades of experience.

    Here’s what I would like to ask that you do:

    1. If you have a job, use “it” but don’t let it use you. If you find something else to suit your fancy, then take it.
    2. Next, if you journal, make sure you write down each day something you did to contribute to your book, even if it was just writing a few sentences, you did something. Don’t try editing, just write. BTW, what type of book are you writing. Perhaps I may come across something that would be an interesting reference.
    3. Every day you get up, even if you’re not going anywhere, dress as if you are. A little lipstick, do your hair, put on a bright color. For me I find that grays and dull colors, depending on what they are depress me. 😣
    4. First thing in the morning, before you begin your day, set aside time to pray and ask God to show you what He needs for you to do that day. He may not have you do much at all, except to observe. Be still, and let Him lead “you.”
    5. Devote some Colleen time for yourself (exercising, taking a long bath, reading, giving yourself a pedicure, etc.). By all means rest.

    You my dear cannot solve everyone else’s problems. They may be happy but it is robbing you of your energy to do some of the things that makes “you” happy and shows some sense of accomplishment.

    Now, please understand that this is no solicitation for any service I’m trying to sell. It’s just that I have been where you are and still sometimes experience those dark days of “Funk.” Recognize it, but don’t stay there. Trust me, more challenging things will come down the road. If you prefer to send me an email, you can go to the contact page on my website and send me a message if you want your correspondence to remain private.

    Like I said, I can truly connect to what you’re feeling right now. But let’s end this day of “funk-tivity” on a high note. And yes, I made that word up! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜†πŸ€£

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    1. 🀣🀣🀣🀣. My book is a biography. Thank you so much for your words. I need to get out of my own way. I love the word funk-tivity yes. Today has been overwhelming. Time for me to get it together. I need to put on my big girl panties and do more. Thank you again for your words. They mean more than you truly know.

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      1. It’s my pleasure girlfriend. If there is something that I can share with you to at least help you with your writing endeavors, just let me know and I will honestly let you know if and when I run across something that will be a helpmate for you and your subject matter. I will be checking in with you periodically to hold you “accountable,” at least for your writing anyway, and to see how you’re doing with restructuring your time and focus on Colleen!!! πŸ€—πŸ€”πŸ˜

        You’re entitled to a cray-cray day, but before you go to bed tonight, even if it is about what you went through today, write that in your document/manuscript/journal for your book. You may or may not use it, but it is always good to write a lot, and then fine-tune it later. Go for it sista! πŸƒπŸ½β€β™€οΈβœπŸ½πŸ’ Have a FANtabulous evening! πŸ™πŸ½

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      1. Hopefully, you can be directed to the right path that makes your heart feel lovely and amazing one day . We all come into these states from time to time but trust that God has the best …

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