I’m struggling right now. I’m not going to lie I can’t see the positive right now. I have so much to be thankful for I get that. But when you feel like so much is going wrong at the moment it’s hard to keep a smile on your face. I have so many people texting and calling me about jobs they are getting, or a new house, etc. And I honestly don’t want to answer the phone or text messages. While I am truly happy for them, I don’t feel like the sun is shining in my life right now. I see the good in my life I truly do but right now when there are things that you need and you pray about it and wait. Well, I’m still waiting. I know that God moves on his time not our time but this is hard right now. Going home last week took my mind off a lot of things but it only furthered reminded me of what I don’t have. I know that I should take the focus off of my situation which I have, but when you wake up it’s still there. I’m trying to focus on something besides my problem but it never seems to work for long. I know that problems don’t last always, but right now I feel like I don’t have a solution to my problem.
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I hope you will feel better soon, but I relate. We seem to go through these seasons. Prayers for you that all is well and you will see the sunshine upon you in the morning! ;-).
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Thank you very much
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You may not have the solutions, but surviving them is an achievement in itself, so don’t forget that you’re actually doing a lot right now. Wishing you all the best for this storm in your life. Take care!
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It’s a wave and it too shall pass. It is blurry but it will clear out. While you are down, see what you can do best for when you get back up on your feet. Thank you for sharing. I feel am not alone in these moments, and that makes me feel hopeful and okay. Sending you hugs
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling. I can relate to this post and what you’re going through. I hope that your dreams can be fulfilled. Sometimes it feels like everyone else is getting theirs and we left wondering when will it be our turn, when can we be congratulated for our prayers being answered, our dreams being fulfilled, etc. It’s hard. I can only say – hang in there. I’ve had to sometimes mute people on social media that brag about that new car, new house, new book deal, etc. I am also happy for them, but it’s hard to constantly be reminded of things that you also want to achieve. You’re not alone in this fight and your feelings are normal and valiud. You got this. It’ll be your turn soon. ❤
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Thank you so much
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I hear you. I am in a position where life has left me a bit jaded. I don’t understand why I can’t have the happiness that I see other people have. A part of me is frustrated and resentful when I see “cute couples”. Why can’t I have that? I know that it is all God’s plan and in time it will happen. I just take the lessons I get from each person and try to continue improving myself. You will be ok. You will make it through your hard time and when things are the way you wish them to be, you will appreciate it even more. I know that’s hard to hear when you’re struggling but it is true. I have to keep telling myself the same thing.
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I had to let that relationship go in order to find my husband. I felt like I would never find anyone but then my husband came along at a time when I didn’t want to date. Good things will come when you least expect it.
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