I’m struggling right now. I’m not going to lie I can’t see the positive right now. I have so much to be thankful for I get that. But when you feel like so much is going wrong at the moment it’s hard to keep a smile on your face. I have so many people texting and calling me about jobs they are getting, or a new house, etc. And I honestly don’t want to answer the phone or text messages. While I am truly happy for them, I don’t feel like the sun is shining in my life right now. I see the good in my life I truly do but right now when there are things that you need and you pray about it and wait. Well, I’m still waiting. I know that God moves on his time not our time but this is hard right now. Going home last week took my mind off a lot of things but it only furthered reminded me of what I don’t have. I know that I should take the focus off of my situation which I have, but when you wake up it’s still there. I’m trying to focus on something besides my problem but it never seems to work for long. I know that problems don’t last always, but right now I feel like I don’t have a solution to my problem.