My struggle:

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We all deal with struggles, but some struggles can affect our lives. One of my struggles is I’m a product of divorce. My parents divorced when I was 7 years old. They say that divorce is hard for the parents, but it’s also hard for the kids. My mom was hurt and very bitter regarding her divorce. I heard about her dislike for my dad often and it made me never want to get married. While my dad just went on with his life and got married again. But what I didn’t realize is how much it affected me. As I got older I dealt with men who cheated on me and it triggered something in me from my past. My dad cheated on my mom and got another woman pregnant and it crushed my mom. And I felt like I was going down the same path that my mom had gone down but I wasn’t married. But I had to realize that I wasn’t my mom and that I had to move on. When I got married I was so excited but in the back of my mind, I always felt like what if I get divorced? This question has always been a pain on my side. My husband hasn’t cheated on me and he told me that he wasn’t going anywhere. I’m either going to trust him or I will always be plagued with this annoying question. But one thing that I do realize being married for 10 years is that you have to have two people who are committed to one another. If one person is half in and the other is all in then it just might not work. Another thing is that you can’t compare your life with someone else’s life. This has been my struggle for many years, but I have learned to let it go. I can’t keep dwelling on this question. They say that love conquers all but I believe two people who truly want this to work conquers all.

7 thoughts on “My struggle:

  1. Thank you again for sharing your deep thoughts and experience. My father cheated on my mother but she stayed in the marriage for 32 years and had 8 children. Your testimony made me reflect back on how she suffered in silence and remain in a marriage that did not honor her. She said she stay because Of her children.

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    1. Your welcome. It wasn’t easy and I feel like I have to talk about the things that I’m still dealing with. To many women stay because of the kids and become bitter. I’m glad that my mom didn’t stay but I wish she didn’t struggle with being bitter and mean about the marriage for as long as she did. I find myself trying to understand how men can take their wife and family for granted.

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      1. I understand how your mother felt. My son’s father left us when he was 10 months old and never looked back. He married his childhood sweet and they are still married it’s been almost 30 years. I was young and it wreck me for years. It was easy but I had to learn to let it go. Believe me it’s wasn’t easy.

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  2. Thank you for sharing your story, very sad you went through that but I’m glad your marriage seems to be solid and although your mum went through it your path and marriage can and will be different. All the best, i always learn of life from a different perspective when readying your posts

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