Removing fear:

This morning I had a heart to heart with my husband. I have been in some hurtful relationships. My husband and I will be married for 10 years in September and I haven’t been in a relationship like this. I’m used to verbal abuse, emotional abuse, and physical abuse. I’m used to cheating and lying. I’m used to disrespect and no love. It was an eye-opener. My husband is different and I have been expecting him to do these things to me. I have been waiting for what I’m used to but this relationship is different. I haven’t let my guard down. And at some point, I have to understand that my husband isn’t like these past men in my life. I have to let my guard down and understand that this relationship is different. I have to understand that my husband committed to me before we got married. He has always been teamed me. He has always had my back. He has always wanted the best for me. Now has he hurt me yes. But it’s never been like the relationships that I have been in before. I’m used to be so scared that one day I will have to go through the same thing again. But I haven’t and it’s time to move on. I understand that you will never have a perfect relationship, but one thing that I understand is that when you have someone who loves you with all your heart then they will make sure that they have your best interest at heart. It makes sense now to me. I have to let go of my past because I’m missing out on a great future. I’m glad that I have a great husband. He isn’t perfect by any means but he loves and treats me better than I am used to.