Yesterday was Father’s Day and it’s always been a strange holiday for me. I don’t have a good relationship with my dad. It’s not like I don’t want one but other things have always been more important to my dad than me. My parents divorced when I was 7 years old. My dad would tell me every summer that he was coming to get me and it never happen. I was always watching and waiting and the same excuses year after year was told to me. But a part of me was hurt but more importantly a part of me wanted to be a part of my dad’s life. And as I got older the same story different day was told to me. And I had had enough of broken promises and lies from him. So I don’t talk to him anymore. I have read so many stories of how awesome some dads are and I wish my dad was like that. I always wondered why I wasn’t that important to him. I always wondered why not having me in his life even mattered to him? The older I get the more I have realized people will always be there for those that they want to be there for. As much as it hurts trust me I’m okay with it. I want someone who will show up for me no matter what. Who will love me unconditionally? And I have that in God, so I’m very content. I don’t know when I will talk to my dad again, to be honest. And I’m okay with that. I know what I deserve and need and it’s not someone who will lie to me.
Conversations on finding and loving who I am 
so brave of you to share this. hope you are doing well today. thank you for sharing.
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Holidays like this will always be hard for kids of unavailable parents. Sending you the warmest hugs.
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Hugs! Sometimes not having someone in your life can be healthier for you than having a toxic relationship 💖
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You are so right at that
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I can understand what you’re dealing with, especially when it involves someone so close to you and whose DNA you embody. First, as hard as it may be, pray for him and then step away. We expect better and yearn for closeness from those who we love dearly and the relationship we want to build with them.
Yet, at the same time, we must be mindful of ‘what’ we invite into our lives, and while it may not feel like it, his absence, albeit painful, maybe a blessing in disguise until he gets his act together. When the time is right, if and when it is, let God do the leading. Like Shelly DS said, “sometimes not having someone in your life can be healthier for you.” Keep your head up and stay encouraged! 🙂
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You are right. Thank you so much
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Yours is a very personal hurt but know there are countless others like you that struggle with this day. I’ve compensated by trying to be the best parent I can be for my kids. Even if they don’t think so (ughh teenagers) at least I’m not as shitty as my parents.
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Happy Father’s Day, to your husband!
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