I’m not going to lie apart of me is torn about what to do next with my life. But also a part of me is torn about what to do with some relationships in my life. I honestly feel like no matter how much you care or try to explain things to people they will never get it. Some people grew up not being loved or cared for. Some people grew up with so much love that they give it back to others. But no matter what you do for someone they will never understand it and will always question it. I’m really at the point in my life if I should even care anymore. There is so much going on in this world and I get it but at the end of the day, we all have to go home and face our problems. We all have friendships and relationships that we know aren’t good for us. We all have to get to a point in our lives where we start to put us first. I don’t know what that looks like to be honest because I don’t do that. I take care of everyone else and leave myself for last. But I feel like this needs to change in my life. I leave the leftover energy for myself and that isn’t enough. Most of the time I’m so tired that I neglect myself. I have to truly love myself and give me time and space to grow and develop. I have to give myself time to be the best me. Looking back in life I have truly neglected myself and I feel like the best me is still inside of me.