I’m learning things about myself daily, and one thing that I have learned is that I’m letting my past control me. I learning that I can’t be a good wife until I release my past. I hold back when it comes to love, compassion and giving my all. I have been hurt so much that I don’t want to give my all to anyone. And it shouldn’t be that way. I have let them pass relationships haunt me and build a wall up where I can’t give my all. I’m struggling with this but I am taking steps that are helping me to deal with my issues. It won’t happen overnight but I know that the first step is to deal with the hurt and pain. I need to learn to open up more but right now I can’t.