I must admit I haven’t been giving my all to my marriage. Why you might ask? Because I’m afraid that my marriage will fail. I’m so used to people cheating, physical abuse and verbal abuse. But my husband is different right? Yes but he’s still a man. I have had a rough time in my life with men. From my father on and sometimes I feel like maybe I shouldn’t be loved or maybe I’m unloveable. It’s hard to explain but I’m realizing that I’m worth more than I think. So why not give my all to my marriage. If he fails me he fails me but at least I gave my all. I’m glad that I have this time to reflect on my life and make some much-needed changes. Life and marriage can be beautiful but you need to be all in. And I’m definitely all in.
Conversations on finding and loving who I am 
I am praying for you.
You are so worthy of being loved. I have had to heal from abuse too. Healing takes time and that is okay. Fear of failure is a big thing to hold you back from the endless possibilities God has for you. Renew your mind through what God says about you and your marriage. I am here if you want to talk!
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Thank you so much. I might take you up on your offer to talk ☺
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Always here! 🙂
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I’m praying for you as well! You are SO loved and adored by our heavenly Father! Marriage is a beautiful and wonderful gift
from Him. Praying that as you continue to evolve, God will solidify His love for you. He’s committed to us! Even with the things we experience in life, I’ve been disappointed by men as well and involved in a verbal/emotional abuse situation, we are overcomers and more than conquerors! May the Lord continue to bless your marriage beyond what you could have ever imagined! He’s able to do it!
By the way, I love your blog!!!
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Thank you
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