I have always felt like I had a good relationship with God since I’ve could remember. I pray daily, read my bible, read devotionals and pray with and for others. I help where is a need and when there isn’t a need. So I should be good with God right? No, because something for has been missing. It’s called a personal relationship. I pray when I need him and when I’m good. I go to church and help out where I can. But honestly, I don’t have a deep connection with God like I feel I should have. I hear people all the time talking about how they have this meaning relationship with God, and I’m like why can’t I have that too? What am I missing with my connection with God? I really gave this some serious thought and this is what I came up with. Well for one when I pray to God about a problem, understanding or whatever I may be going through, I don’t always take the time to be still and listen. I just pray and get up and go on about my day. For some, this doesn’t seem wrong, but when you talk to someone isn’t it rude to walk away before the person has a chance to answer? What about praying and worrying? If I trust God then why am I worrying about it? I’m trying to be a better me all around this year and the one thing that I want most of all this year is to have a better relationship with God. To me, this is so important. I want to fully trust him with everything in my life. I want to understand him better. I struggle to understand God at times. I struggle to understand why he wanted to create someone like me who is so flawed. I know we are all flawed. He loved me before I was in my mother’s womb. That’s a love I can kinda understand because when I was pregnant I loved my children unconditionally. I want his will to be done in my life. So this year I’m working on my relationship with God. I want him to say in the end well done thy good and faithful servant.