Last week has been a truly humbling week. I’m not a perfect person at all. But when it comes to my marriage, I don’t have all the answers. But for my husband and I divorce isn’t an option for us. But like I said I don’t have all the answers, but instead of me talking to my husband about it I went silent, than angry. I use to think a lot with my feelings but this time I thought that I was thinking with my heart, but I wasn’t. Instead of really thinking about what I was upset about and talking about it, I just held it in. And so goes my anger. I had a headache last Sunday and my husband was only trying to help and I treated him like he was bothering me. I treated him like he was a nobody. And so my weekend went something like this. I’m upset with my husband so I become rude and not wanting to be around him. So, as Tuesday rolls around I write him this letter about all the things that I feel like he needs to work on. And he reads it, and we talk about it, but I’m still not convinced that things will change. Wednesday rolls around and at this point to be honest I really don’t know what to do. I’m asking for a sign on what I need to do from God. I’ve always been told to be careful what you ask for. Boy was I not prepared for what God was about to do to me.
Part 2 coming soon.