What Am I Doing?

I don’t understand why I’m feeling this way? I feel like I’m pushing the people who I love the most away. I just feel like I’m in a true funk when it come’s to my feelings. I get that my feelings are not always right, but there are times when my feelings are right. Like right now I’m trying to make sense of all that I’m feeling. To add to the situation I’m also dealing with the passing of my grandfather so now my feelings are all over the place. I’m trying to understand why I feel the way I feel and how to get a hold of these feelings. Even though it’s not good to go off of your feelings alone, it is good to sort out your feelings and try to find the real issue of why your feeling the way your feeling.