Do you know who you are? I didn’t know who I was. I struggled with this question for years. WHO AM I? Shouldn’t that be easy to answer? It should be but it’s not. Yes the simple answer to give is I’m a daughter, wife, mother and friend. But beyond that who am I really? I know that I’m a child of God, so therefore I should really know who I am right? Wrong I had no clue at all. I’ve always felt like a huge piece of me was missing. I had to step back and really take a look at myself. Their was so much that I hadn’t dealt with from my past. You can’t move forward in life if you haven’t dealt with your past. Who want’s to go back in the past and deal and heal with those issues? I know I don’t. But it was so necessary to know who I am. All that had and has happen to me make me who I am. I’m a stronger, wiser and a better person.
Why is it so difficult for me to know who I am? I have always felt like a huge piece of me was missing. Not having my father in my life. I have seen my family members and friends in two parent households. But my parents marriage and divorce had nothing to do with me. But I always felt like they divorced because of me. I would think that I wasn’t good enough. Or was having me even part of the plan? But I came to realize that the things that I thought wasn’t true. I had nothing to do with my parents divorce. But was me being from a divorce home really part of the problem of me not knowing myself? Does one absent parent really pull that much weight for a child?
I’m going to answer that question later on this week. Part 2 is coming soon.