It hurts:

It hurts to see what you have become
A silly little child a restless bum
I watched you grow from a baby to a man
And what I really don’t understand
Is where I went wrong
It troubles me so
You were on the right path
But now I don’t know
I don’t understand why you don’t care so much
Your life is so precious, but you don’t give a fuck
As a mother, it hurts me to see
What your life could have been
But now I watch what your life is to be

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My Journey in marriage:

I see so many people laughing and smiling there way through life. And I wonder if the laugh and smile are genuine or are they making everything look good for the world? Well, when I look in the mirror I have to ask myself the same thing. This week was a tough week for me emotionally. My husband and I weren’t talking because we got into an argument last Saturday. So we didn’t talk and it hurt me because I didn’t know how to say what I was feeling. Honestly, I didn’t know how I was feeling. But it hurt because we weren’t communicating. Marriage isn’t easy and I see that a lot of people make it look easy. I’m learning not to say things when I’m emotional. I want to make sure that my words are full of love and respect. We are talking now and have made up. But what I’m trying to say is that my words use to be out of anger and payback. I’m learning to choose my words carefully because words have power. I never want to destroy anyone with my words. So I’m learning to let my words be better. I want to speak life over people. I want my marriage to grow and if you want to grow anything then you must water it and speak life in the situation. You won’t see results right away, but I’m positive that you will see results within a week.

Summer days:

Some days I remember just like it was June
The sky was bright and so was the moon
My days as a kid was so carefree
I felt I could fly and just be me
But as the summer ended
And a season appeared
I could always count on
The bright sky and the stars being so clear

My Friend Part 6:

I feel like those who are different from us don’t get the same type of respect. Why is that? Why do we as outgoing people treat other’s who are not outgoing different? Why don’t we take the time to get to know them? Why do we call them names? Why do we feel like we are better? Well for me I’m not like that. I speak to everyone and try to get to know anybody. I don’t always want to conversate with someone who is outgoing. Why because most of the time they are like me surface talkers. Someone who is quiet and reserved usually is deep thinkers. I love to hear what they think about different things. Their conversation makes me think deeper about the subject. People who are not social are quite funny and cool to hang around. If we take the time to get to know people then you will see that we have a lot in common with them. The only difference between us is that they have a hard time getting to know people. Crowds of more than 3 they are not sure how to handle the conversation. What I’m trying to get at is stop thinking and saying people are weird when they’re not. You just don’t know what they are dealing with and you don’t want to take the time to find out or get to know them. Take the time to care for other people who are not like you. Understand that you might be the friend that they have been waiting for.

Let’s talk:

What do you do when everything in your life isn’t perfect? How do you let feelings out in away that is healthy? I’m dealing with life, and I’m not sure what direction to take. Life isn’t all peaches and cream. When your going through the storm you become consumed with the problem but often times we forget who has the solution. God has the solution. Put your focus on him and not on your problems. God will always work it out for you. The storm might be in your life right now, but it won’t stay forever.

Who am I

Who am I

Who am I

Just let me be clear

I’m the cloud at night that whispers in your ear

Who am I

Who am I

I’m just the wind they say

My name is written in history please do not be afraid

Who am I

Who am I

Dressed so lovely you see

Who am I

Who am I

Just plain old me

Goodbye

Now it’s time to say goodbye

To all the misery and tears I’ve cried

I no longer need your pain

The love I have is worth the gain

You have always been my downfall

Now it’s time for me to gain it all

Now it’s time to say goodbye

No more heartache, pain and lies

I wish you all the best, but my life isn’t worth this stress

I’m starting to realize I’m better off on my on

This life that I’m living I feel so alone

So much pain and sorrow to bare

Right now life feels so unfair

I try and I try without my luck

Why do I put up with so much unnecessary stuff

You only have one life to live

Why should I be unhappy with the life I live