Hello everyone. I hope that you had a great weekend. I hope you all have a great week. I’m taking a break from blogging this week to spend time with my family. I hope you all enjoy and take the time to love those in your household this week.
I’m naturally a feeling person. And when I feel a certain way it’s hard for me to not feel that way anymore. As a parent, I want nothing but the best for my children. I don’t tell my kids how to live their lives but I do try to direct and guide them when it’s asked. For some reason no matter how I try to guide my daughter it always seems to be the opposite with her. She wasn’t feeling good yesterday and I as mom was helping her, but then her friend calls and takes her for ice cream. Talk about a slap in the face. I have had it with her. I feel like no matter what I do or say she will do what she wants anyway. And I want to help her, but honestly, I feel like she needs to bump her head and learn the hard way in life. No matter what I say it’s her friends always. Well, we are going to see how many of your friends will care if you caught COVID our not get a scholarship for next semester. How many of your friends are going, to be honest about you doing what you need to do for things to be better for you in the future? It’s frustrating because she is such a bright girl but just so naive when it comes to who has your back. I think it’s time for me to let go and let God. I have prayed about it and have spoken to her about it but only God can move her heart. We’ll keep me in your thoughts and prayers. This is hard for me right now.
I’m not even gonna lie Covid has made things hard for me. I haven’t seen my sons and mom since May. I miss them like crazy. But I have grown to appreciate the time that we did spend together. I definitely didn’t take that for granted. And now I understand what my Granny used to always say. Make sure you make your time with people count because you never know when it will be your last time seeing them. Oh, how right she was. I don’t know what 2021 may bring, but I do know that from now on I will be more intentional when I spend time with people. I miss hanging out with my friends and giving them hugs. Time is so precious that we often take it for granted. 2021 I plan on doing things differently because I know that I have not used my time here on earth wisely. The next time I see family and friends I’m going to hug them longer and enjoy them more than I used to.
I thought that I had my fear under control until recently. And this fear for some may seem crazy or even unnecessary but it’s real. Since George Floyd died my fear of my husband driving somewhere by himself has crippled me. But now when I go somewhere by myself I often wonder will I be okay. Not just driving but going into stores. Yes, I’m well aware of black people being followed in certain stores. But now it seems like people are just being rude and calling the police on innocent people because they feel like they don’t belong there. It amazes me how people can tell other people where they belong and where they don’t. I often find myself wondering if this is the land of the free why it doesn’t feel that way. Like I said for some you will understand what I’m saying. I remember a couple of weeks ago I went to the store and this guy had on a make America great again hat and a trump mask. I didn’t care because those things don’t bother me. It’s called freedom of speech and expression but what bothered me was how he looked at me. And then he had the nerve to say I bet you hate what I have on. And I was like no I don’t, but I bet you hate that I’m not bothered by it. You should have seen the look on his face, even though he had on a mask you could tell that he was surprised by my reaction. I played it cool because I honestly didn’t know where the conversation was gonna go, but he looked at me and said yes I am surprised, and then told me to have a nice day. You should never fear any man, but it hurts when you don’t have the power to defend yourself if need be because you could die. I wish this world was a more equal place to live but it’s not. I don’t care what people wear or what they say, just as long as your not in my face. It’s all about respect for me. But if I was to get pulled over our if I was to defend myself would others see it the same way?
I want to continue with my grateful message. If any of you are married or have been married. Then you know how hard it can be. My first five years of marriage was a true struggle for me. We had times where we just couldn’t get it right no matter how hard we tried. But we didn’t give up on each other. We got to a place where we both communicated so differently. Once we got into a marriage group and then started doing the hard work on one another we got better. No, we are not perfect but our marriage is better than ever. I’m grateful for my husband never giving up on me and this marriage. I’m grateful for him being the provider while I got laid off work. I’m grateful during this season of 2020 we are still in love and enjoy spending time with one another. There are so many people I know who are currently going through a divorce. It’s sad because you don’t know what people are going through in their marriage no matter how well you know them. Even if your marriage isn’t going as well as you would like if you and your spouse are still trying to make it work then that’s a reason to be grateful. I count my blessings daily when it comes to my husband. I’m grateful for him and his friendship.
I was so excited to get this book. I’ve always been curious about the mothers of three great men. But where do you start? How do you find the information that you need? I was so eager to dive into this book and I must admit I feel like these three mothers. This book is full of love and compassion for their sons. How they were raised and taught shows the type of love that they received. This book also helps me to understand that no matter what as a mother when are always teaching our children and trying to have their lives better than ours. We lose sleep and suffer because of the love that we have for them. This book shows me that not only were these three mothers exceptional mothers but they didn’t get the credit that they deserved. We have to prepare our children for the world. And unfortunately, they had to live to see their son’s death. This book is beyond amazing and so needed at a time where mothers are hardly given the credit for raising such incredible men. Thank you book browse for giving me the opportunity for this advanced reading book.
There is so much going on right now to get us down and make us mad. Some things make us question different things about this year. But one thing that I’m seeing is how grateful people are at this time. I’m just going to say this, even though things are bad you are getting through it. Even though you may not be able to travel your safe. You may not be able to see your family for the holidays but they are alive. You might not be able to go into the office but you have a job. Your children may not be able to go to school but they are still learning. You may not be able to go to the movies but you have shows you have recorded that you can watch. You may not be able to do all the things that you use to do but you are alive. Why do we always focus on the bad? How about this week you make a list of the things and people you are grateful for.
Okay I love mystery books and I usually can figure out pretty quickly who did it. But not this book. This book kept me on my toes for real. I didn’t want to put this book down it was so good. I’m sad I haven’t read more books from this author. A must read seriously. It’s that good.
I don’t know about you but the simple things are truly making my weeks and days. Yesterday I needed to run some errands but just getting out in the sunshine helped to lift my spirit. And I was thankful that not a lot of people were in the store when I went. I miss just getting out and about like I used to. Even though it’s cooler today than yesterday I still plan on going outside for a little while. I might take a walk or just stay on the porch. If your feeling down gets some fresh air if you can. Buy a plant or make a recipe you have been wanting to try. Even though this year and probably month is stressful, find different ways to de-stress and enjoy the day. I hope everyone has a great weekend.
What does it mean to love someone unconditionally? Is it even possible?