I don’t understand:

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It’s hard for me to sit here and think about all the people who have been killed by guns. It’s every harder for me to sit here and think that an unarmed black man was shoot over 60 times by police. And then on the 4th of July, you have a mass shooter shooting at innocent people for no reason. And yet he wasn’t killed. But he killed and injured other people. I just don’t understand at all. Yes, the black man had a gun in his car. But he was outside of his car. He didn’t kill anyone but yet his body was riddled with bullets. Someone, please help me make sense of this? I’m tired of seeing black people gunned down like dogs while others don’t even have a scratch on them. When is this going to stop? I’m trying to understand but I just don’t.

New month, more kindness:

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It’s a new month and I hope that everyone is doing good. I have been good. I’m not where I want to be, but that’s okay. I have read so many stories about people who are seeking to do better and be better in their lives. And to be honest I feel like that is what we all should be striving for every day. Your smile could brighten someone’s day. Just asking a stranger how they are doing could make their day better. I know we live in a world where things are pretty bad. But that doesn’t mean that we can’t be kind. Kindness doesn’t cost you anything but time. I was at the store and I saw a lady who had a sign that said needing food. It broke my heart because that could have been me or someone that I loved. I’m unemployed but the cash that I had on me I gave to her. And I saw the looks of people who were looking at me like I did something wrong. But you don’t know that when I gave her the four dollars how she cried. I don’t think this lady was scamming anyone, I believe that she genuinely needed help. And it was at that moment that other people came and handed her money. Sadly, judgment can make you feel a certain way about yourself. But it takes one person who cares that will make all the difference. My hope this month is that we will all use kindness as are motto. You may not want to give money to someone homeless, but you can do small things. I know that everyone will be with family and friends today, but take the time to be intentional about your conversations with people. Be intentional with your smile and be genuine in the things that you do for others. I hope everyone has a great day.

Book review: Every breath you take

When I tell you’ll that I love me some Mary Higgins Clark books. Going from reading books that I truly didn’t get or were just so boring, to this little gem here. Okay so let me give you a little about this book. It’s about a wealthy widow who ends up dying at her charity event. But who killed her remained the mystery. Her kids thought it was her way younger boyfriend and some thought it was her son. But to be honest, I thought it was one of these two, maybe it was and maybe it wasn’t. When I tell you that I love mystery books. This book was no different. I love everything about this book, I couldn’t put it down. Every free moment I had I was reading this book. I give it 5 out of 5 stars. If you have read this book please let me know your thoughts.

Book review: Little Disasters

Well here we go again. The title should have been a warning to me. This book is so confusing and when I tell you I only got to page 187. I had, had enough of this book. I didn’t finish it y’all. Maybe I will pick it back up later but my goodness all types of confusion. If you have read this book please let me know if it’s worth re-reading or not. I don’t like to not finish books. But this is the second book in a row that was awful πŸ€¦πŸ½β€β™€οΈ. Okay let’s hope my next review is better than this one. This is a no for me.

This is my truth:

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This is a very hard post for me to write, but I feel like right now people are hurting. It’s okay to tell your truth when you have healed from it to help others out. 20 odd years ago I had an abortion. No, I’m not happy about it at all. It was honestly one of the darkest moments in my life. A part of myself died that day, it’s something that will stay with me until I die. I can’t tell anyone what to do with their bodies, but I feel like people who have had an abortion are looked at as evil. Trust me I’m not an evil person at all. The only person who knew that I had an abortion was my kid’s dad and then I told my husband later. I was ashamed and felt empty. But no one know what was going on with my body but my doctor and myself. I’m not telling anyone that abortion is right or wrong, but understand we all have made hard decision’s in our lives that we are not proud of. I have friends who were raped by family members and people that they didn’t know and had to make the difficult decision to abort a child. Not everyone who has an abortion is irresponsible things have happened to them that made them make this decision. Please before you judge me and other’s her their story. I have read so many stories about how people feel about people who have had an abortion. We are not bad people, just made a decision that’s not right for everyone. Just know that people who have had one deal with this pain daily.

Let’s keep it real:

When I tell you that I’m crushed and disappointed that my new job didn’t work out. I believe that people should put their best foot forward. When you come to train please be positive and not talk bad about the other employees. And then don’t have an attitude because people are asking questions. When I say that my experience was horrible, it was just that. I feel like a disappointment to my husband and myself. I felt like this job was the one and I passed on other jobs for this one. I’m hugely disappointed. I’m back to job hunting again. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers because this is getting to me.

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Book Review: Mrs.

I was in the Dollar Tree one day and I found a couple of books that caught my interest. I was excited to get home and read this book. I had heard so many people talk about the books that they had found at the dollar tree and how much they enjoyed them. Well let me tell you, this book did not do it for me. I don’t know what it is about this book, but I couldn’t get into it at all. It was so confusing and it started so slow. I didn’t enjoy this book at all. If you have read this book and you think I should give it another try then please let me know. But this book is a no go for me.

Good news:

When things happen that are out of your control. Sometimes you feel like here we go again or you feel your a failure. I ended my job last month. And going back into looking for a job was so depressing. I knew I would find something but when was the problem. I πŸ™ that I would have a job by my birthday. And we’ll I got a job before my birthday. Im in a new industry, new title and the highest pay I have ever had. I πŸ™ that this job will grow me and stretch me. I πŸ™ that this is my last job for years. I don’t want to job hunt anymore. Life is looking up for me.

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I need patience:

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While I’m working on myself. I have to work on my patience. I’m starting to get down on myself because I haven’t gotten a job yet. Yes, I’m going through staffing companies, but with that, they are trying to send me places that are way too far. Listening if I have to google the name of the city it’s probably too far. I’m trying to have better self-talk when it comes to this situation. No, I haven’t been out of work long, but it’s still getting frustrating. Any advice on how to be patient in this area of my life?