Betrayal can come in all types of forms. It can be a betrayal of a friend, spouse, boyfriend/girlfriend or employer. I’ve never felt more hurt then I did with the company that I use to work for. How could I have put my trust in them, just to be betrayed? I worked for this company for almost two years and I felt like people where genuine, but it all changed when my co-worker got fired. It felt like certain people changed toward me. All along I felt like they understood me and cared for me. But in reality, they didn’t. As soon as I put in my two weeks’ notice the girl that they fired they asked her to come back. A true shocker to say the least. I don’t understand how you say we have a zero-tolerance policy workplace but then hire her back??? And the bad part about it was the fact that people thought that I didn’t know. Oh, they showered me with kind and loving words. But little did they know that I already knew. I was hurting but I never took it out on them. I came in and did my job and made sure everything was good before my last day. But the fact that no one had the respect to let me know told me all that I needed to know. You are easily replaceable. You’re not as important as you thought you were. I worked hard every day doing the right thing but only to be betrayed like this. It hurts but in the end, I know that I made the best decision for me. This a huge learning moment. There are people who I knew were genuine and only want the best for me. And then there are those who don’t really care. I don’t wish them ill will. I wish them much success. This moment has made me better. I’ve grown up a lot because I would never have had peace to be able to pray for them and wish them the best. I know that in the end, I will be okay. I’m glad to be growing and learning important life lessons.
I’m thankful for the power to say no. I had a really hard time saying no to people and things. I wanted to help everyone with everything. People could count on me for whatever they needed. But in the mist of me always being there go to person I never had a go to person. Then I realized that I hardly ever said no to people. And why? Well because if I could help then I wanted to help. But in my transitions of understanding me I had to learn to say no. I needed to protect my peace, joy and understand who was really for me. I’m thankful for learning to say no, because it has taught me things I would have never learned.
I’m thankful for my flaws. I’m learning that my flaws are not always a bad thing to have. My flaws help me to better myself. I use to be ashamed to be flawed but we all are. Why should I be ashamed with what I lack? I’m learning to embrace my flaws and work on them in healthy ways. I’m thankful for this learning process.
I’m thankful for my co-workers. Yesterday was the last day of my job. It was bittersweet. But the love that I received from my co-workers said it all. I have always just been me no matter where I go. And I’ve been told that I’m a joy to be around and I can light up the room with my smile. Yesterday I needed to close that chapter in my life, but the words and prayers that I received yesterday told me everything that I need to know. Continue to be yourself and be the light that people need to see. I’m thankful for the laughs, the tears and all the ups and downs that we have been through. I’m thankful to know and work with such great people. I can honestly say that I will never forget my co-workers. They have added something special to my life. I’m thankful for such genuine people.
I’m thankful that this chapter in my life is closing. I have been hurt and but I have always kept it classy. I have been respectful no matter what. I’m thankful for this learning lesson. I’m thankful for what I went through because it has made me stronger. When life throws you curve balls please always keep it classy. I have prayed for those who have done me wrong. The old me would have never done that. I’m thankful for my growth. I’m truly thankful for the end of this chapter.
I’m thankful that I’m using my voice for the better. Writing is my voice to share with you. I’m not the best writer but I have a story to share. Plus writing helps me with my thoughts and is therapy for me. I’m thankful that God has allowed me to be creative and do what I love. I’m currently writing a book and I’m thankful for that.
I’m thankful for the changes that I’m going through. Right now I’m hurt regarding what has been done to me. I could lash out and be mean and rude. But I choose not to. I know things that I shouldn’t and it hurts when you think that people genuinely cared about you and it turns out that they could care less. To have people lie and not be honest. But I’m healing and releasing my pain in healthy ways. There was a time where I would lash out in unhealthy ways. I learn to pray for people who do me wrong . I’m thankful for these lessons and how I’m growing as a person. I’m thankful for the hard and easy lessons. Thank you.
I’m thankful for my friends. I have a small circle of friends and that’s okay with me. I don’t need a ton of friends because I don’t need the complication. I’m thankful for there listening ear, laughs, and prayers. Friends are hard to find. True friends are hard to find and my small group is amazing. I’m thankful for the bond that we have and how we are growing together. There is nothing like friendship.
I’m thankful for my smile. When I tell you that my smile has been fake lately. But I woke up this morning with a huge genuine smile. It feels so good to be able to smile again. I love that I can smile again. I felt like my true smile was permanently gone and that I had allowed people to take my smile away. I’m so thankful to God that I can smile a true smile again. This is truly something to be thankful for.
I’m thankful for my healing. See I have been through so much within the past several months. And I’m finally beginning to heal from all the hurt that was done to me. I held on to the hurt long enough. I’m thankful for the hurt that has to lead to healing. There is a process in all this and I’m thankful. This healing process is going to belong and it’s going to be needed to make me a better me. There are always blessings in lessons. You just have to want to learn them. I’m thankful for this time to heal. I’m going to be better than I was before.